i is back

Ive been meaning to blog but too lazy to.

Right now i got money on my wallet
why do i find myself writing things down of what i want?
I did the same thing 2 days ago when i got money
its a sick thing
Why cant i just let it be?
its like i NEED to spend it
i dont NEED anything right now
i just want, want want want.

i need to stop , this is going to become a sick addiction.
i want to shop , i like to get new things
so what do i need?
I dont want clothes
i just bought a conditioner, hair dye, highlighting kit, face wash and...sticky notes?
yesterday
i am SICK! haha.
Like my mom says
it BOTHERS me to have money , i need to spend it.
to buy or not to buy?
ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
what do i wantt?


(yes this is a silent cry for help!)
i kinda want someone to help me control myself, and put my money away, save it for when i actually need something.

But the other side of me wants to spend it , get things now that iwill eventually use!


:(