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Love;
I like that we yell at each other on the phone whenever were arguing about dumb stuff
and even if its a little irritating i cant help but smile even when you wont let me finish a sentence
i love that your honest, and i secretly love how you call me "..conceited.." under your breath.
and how you make fun of everything i do and make me feel stupid and when i yell at you to stop you just keep going
but at the same time , it just makes me feel like i can be more of myself
like i dont have to hide anything , even if you laugh at me for it.
I love that you laugh at stupid stuff, and i mean really stupid stuff thats not even funny
but its cute that you do anyways.

and this probably really uncalled for ,and if you ever read this i would be really embarrassed which i know you probably wont cause your so clueless

but last night after that little stupid argument
when you kept saying "are you mad at me?"
"im not"
"yes you ARE why are you mad at me?"

everytime you said that, it honestly felt like a stab in the heart
i had no clue why it felt that way , and why everytime you asked i almost started crying

until i thought about it.

Im not used to that..
im not used to them wanting to know what they did wrong
im not used to them giving a shit
and the way you kept saying it, hurt?
the way you sounded like you honestly cared that i was upset just i dont even know why
the way you kept demanding i tell you why i was mad, the way you kept saying "you ARE upset why are you mad?"
completely broke my heart
i hate to admit it, but im NOT used to that at all

and honestly? i might just love you for that.
(but not seriously!)

the way i was with 'insert name here' and the highlight of my night was you txting me
i hate to admit it but

i dont want you to turn out like every other guy, please?





Life;

Life is good

this morning was BAD
but thankgod it solved itself out..i guess.
i am the luckiest bitch alive.
Some of my books got here. which is EH.
i got the music CD'S , but not the book.
I got the handbook for english which he admitted we probably will never use
and the WRONG reading book.
I still dont have sociology book which i desperately WANT
we havent really "needed" it for homework or anything but i love the things we go over in class and want to look over them.

which brings me to the next topic..


School;
Psychology is thought by the cutest teacher ever
she is SO adorable and shes so happy and outgoing and adorable its like you just want to hug her.
Maybe its cause we havent really gotten into it
i like what we went over today different types of psychology strategies but we'll go into dept for each one of them later on.
which im excited about , but for some reason im somewhat more interested in sociology now? idk

I love that though
who ever thought id ENJOY and look forward to my classes?

and note to self..
books i need:

Sociology(x2)
English "i say we say"
Music 101
Communications

and i also need a binder and more notebooks.. blehhhhh!!
2morrow i have communicationss! and we get to finish our little gay project were we draw and talk out a situation..
our dude has to lay off a couple of workers
and i came up with the fact he should have a "lay off party"
and we're working around that
i think i established myself as the blonde of the group.



and on a side note,

i had a dream about asshole ,which was really uncalled for
but in the dream ,he was hurt
his face was very scard , like he had been in an accident
i wonder if that could have anything to do with what happened today?
but also he had pictures laying next to him and when i picked them up
in every different picture i saw
he was different
he wore glasses, he dressed differently
he was just constanly changing
and that really bothered me


idk what that means
i dont care to find out, i do hope nothing bad like that happens to him though.
well im off to wash my hair with this purple shampoo.
i know what your thinking
"rose didnt you JUST decide and loved to have darker hair?"
yes, but i have honest problems
now i just want it to be lighter again though its getting lighter on its own.
and next week , i will be blogging about how i just bought dark hair dye.









dont judge me.



love,rose.