I think its funny.

That people change when i turn my back on them
and try extra hard to look happy
well, im glad they care that much about what i think.
but not really.


Ive been watching
"Anatomy of a murder"
for what seem hours

i cried.

its so fucked up how people get robbed of their lifes for something they did not do.
all he could've done, he didnt have a choice.
idk what i would do.

if i was put in jail for being framed for something i didnt do and put on death role
i would sit in a prison cell
and cry , and cry , and cry
and i wouldnt eat anything
and id refuse to go outside
and id just stare at a wall for the rest of my life.
cause thats the kind of person i am

Life outside the walls my parents have kept me in for years seems so harsh.
too harsh
how in the reality you could be walking down a street on the way to meet a friend
excited for something ,without a care in the world.
and somebody could hold a knife to your troath
and from that moment you'll never be the same.

i live, undeniably , in my own world.
where "mean" people are girls who are bitches and guys who are jerks
where i cannot truely say i "hate" someone
where murder ,is something you see on the tv
i think thats why i consider myself immature
because the problems i have in my life
are in reality ,so silly.


I dont want to grow up.