Crammmmmmmmpppppppppppssssssssssssss


:(

I got wayyyyyyyy to freaking excited over this

When i saw that envelop
my heart went crazy
i knew they hadnt had a chance to look at my transcript yet because chesapeake wont send them out till the 4th.
But what if since i am applying for the fall semester they went ahead and accepted it?

but nopeeeeeee.


either way
this makes it all the more real.

(as usual , click to make bigger!)

ihopeigetin,ihopeigetin,ihopeigetin,ihopeigetin.

and now, we wait.

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ihopeigetaccepted, ihopeigetaccepted, ihopeigetaccepted.

ihopeigetaccepted.
ihopeigetaccepted.
ihopeigetaccepted.
ihopeigetaccepted.
ihopeigetaccepted.
ihopeigetaccepted.
ihopeigetaccepted.

Im applying today.
Wish me luck.

So rose..

Hows school?
Hows work?
How are your projects and goals going?









idk.
I just know that i am NEVER drinking that much fucking liquor AGAIN!
Some of the major parts i remember last night is trowing up or feeling like i had to trow up passed out on the couch.
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i have to go to work!! why!?!?
WHY WHY WHY!!
and i want leftover turkey dinner....... ugh
but..can i throw up from a hangover?
ugh

fuck fuck fuck

I have too much going on
its overwhelming
for the past like 2 weeks ive been at school way too early cause theres so much shit to do
but GLADLY!! today was the only day i work for the week ,well i work the weekend but thats not too much.

I went to class, than to work, now i gotta go to class again.
Tommorow i gotta go to school early (AGAIN!) to help with the fundraiser shit
and i have to get shit straight for the party
ksdjhfahlashas
i feel like id ont have time to breathe anymore
I GOT MY CLASSES STRAIGHT! but i think im dropping 2 of them
because i thought i needed 15. i only need 9 credits.


so anyways, heres what i have.

Psychology- human growth and developmt
Humanities
Art
Fitness and wellness
english 102
Math 031 <---FUCKK THAT.
i HAD to take it because of the big amount of classes i was taking
so im hoping if i drop of them ill be able to drop that math class too..
that would leave me with only 3 classes
and to be honest that sounds like a dreammmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!

OH OH OH :)!<3
i have an appointment at SU next tuesday!!! to talk to an advisor
YES IM EXCITED AS HELL.
ill make sure to look extra nice :3

and ill make sure to post.
life is good
my job is good
school is okayy.


how are you?

sdfljfasklfdash

fucking headache
today was a good day though
i dont feel like blogging..
i met jason , he was cute
i like wye mills its like a real deal college
we all crammed in sarahs car and headed over , stopped at wawa
and reminer to self to never get a breakfast sandwhich

and needless to say
student goverment loved us.
and yes , we're an official organization now.
holla at yoo girl.

Ah , but its so much to take in.
its weird, all we've done is work (sorta) but i love these girls!
we alwyas have so much fun when we're together
and we're planning on SO much shit its crazy

newyork trip

SNOW tubbing!!!

ahh!

their both kinda with the school but with newyork we get 6 hrs to do whatever the fuck we want
snow tubbing is an overnight trip to philly

ummmm

and of course the jelly fish invasion
im probably not going to be able to touch my paycheck......
oh well.


pictures;




workingggg

^^ hahah i trew the bottle in the normal trashcan so i basically had to get it back so i dont look like a fakey


ew



:-*


<3333 i loved seeing him there!

eyebagsssss!!!

Dude, yes. I AM procrastinating on this english paper.

BUT I SWEAR im going to spend atleast 2 hours in it

because i have a C IN THAT CLASS!! and i need it to be a B.

it has to be so.

and so................

yeah.

Baltimore was.

um

it was kinda depressing

resembled new york in some parts

and i saw alot of homeless people and it made me sad.

the ronald macdonald house, which as the guy explain

has no relaiton at all to the mcdonald corporation

was opened because .. i forgot the dudes name, but he was a football star

and his brother had lukemia , and he noticed that just like him

all these familys came from all over the country to the john hopkins hospital

spending nights in couches, hotels, all this expensive stuff

so he decided to open the house

and its like a hotel

its actually, nice as shit

they have a computer room flat screens, lounge, nice ass kitchens with views

its like a hotel for the sick and their familys

which i thought was pretty awsome

The guy was pretty cool too

Im so excited

im so excited for this whole project

and even though i just thought about this today

im so excited about how GOOD its going to look that i volunteered there.

that with being secretary of the green team..

come on now.

im excited.

its like i love helping AND i love the titles that come with it.

eric me and nicoel were tripping the whole time

Shit.

i thought id hate it at peake

i wanted to

i wanted to GO, study, and be out

but ive made some friends i intend to keep for a very long time

i will miss them all

even the would you rather games that almost made nicole wreck atleast 50 times

we went to the mall ,and it was awsome

I CANNOT WAIT FOR MY PAYCHECK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

either way....................

let me hush now.

the big meeting is tommorow! we're meeting at my place for breakfast than heading over to wye mills

AHH FINGERS CROSSED!!!

^^ me eric and nicoles peace sign at the lego store. hollaaa

love,rose

la la la.

Fuck.
My chest hurts, idky

anyways today was fun
sarah and kaitlyn make my day.
love those girls to death
we get along so well and we went to arbys and talked about cambridge trash
and i made fun of sarah 24/7 for being a gold digger, which shes not.
Im going to miss them
kj might move to NC..AH!! :(
but wednesday we're going to dress up , take pictures, go to breakfast and head over to wye mills


I talked to my advisor today
he helped me figure out how to calculate my gpa
and i stand at a 2.8 gpa..which I DONT FUCKING LIKE AT ALL!!!!!
I WANT A 3.0 OR HIGHER!
so, im on nerd mode for the rest of the semester
i also got a transcript request sheet
its all coming so fast


work was very slow
i love it watching these people, my coworkers ,their like family
and joke 24/7
but i was praying someone would come in! it was so boring!!!
oh well, as long as im getting paid.
but shit, i only work 4 days this week.
booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

i want to make more moolah!
and i wish theyd put me in a busy day
they keep giving me weird hours to avoid "busy" days so i dont get lost
but im good now!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.




but shit
if anyboldys reading this
TRY THE CHICKEN BACON SWISS
its fucking awsome.


tommorow morning erics picking me up at 8 int he fucking morning!!!
we're ognna meet up with nicole and head over to bmore for the tour.
im kinda excited
we're all going to look classy and shit.
so expect pictures from this week.

my chest still hurts!! ahhh.


im going to sleep now, long day 2morrow.

love,rose

Boo.

I woke up wanting to go to the gym.
and realize the Y opens at 1pm on sundays!

SO,
in the meantime
ill make a schedule
it would be ALOT better if i knew my work schedule
but its whatever.

Monday to Thursday	5:00 am	9:00 pm
Friday	5:00 am	8:00 pm
Saturday	7:00 am	5:00 pm
Sunday	1:00 pm	5:00 pm

those are the YMCA hours


My schedule-

Sunday- Ymca, start english paper, finish both sociology discussions, finish sociology paper, finish sociology quiz, organize makeup

Monday- 5am go to the Y till 6:30, School at 10 , meet up with sarah write emails, talk to teachers. (REMEMBER TO ASK ABOUT GPA AND TRANSFER PAPERS!!!!!!)
Class till 4, (after prob work)

Tuesday- rest (ill prob be sore as fuckk) meet up at 7 to go up to Baltimore john Hopkins for a tour , plan activities, night workout, meet up with fsc group finish project, night workout

Wednesday- Morning workout, 7:30am meet up with my girls, breakfast, wye mills to meet with the student council, back to school for classes , (work?) (STUDY FOR COMM)

Thursday- comm quiz, workout after class, (work?)

Friday- Morning work out, no work, family day!

Sat- ??? ; )






Dates to remember;

November 16th - registration
Sunday 22nd- Volunteering at john hopkins
Jelly fish/aquarium trip- ??? find out!
Ice skating- Find out!



love,rose

sdkjfhfsakj

My feet hurt like a bitch!!!

5 hours is brutal.


paycheck, paycheck, paycheck

plus...wontsaywho wasnt at work today..so yeah i was kinda bummed.
he works 2morrow though..maybe ill go stalk him.

maybe.
i should probably just get his number
but i feel so weird!
im used to talking to party assholes so i dont give a shit ill ask them right away
but his..different
his a nice guy, and i dont know how he would see that


..............
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

im going to call paulie poppikins now and annoy him with my problems.

homework 2morrow with the girls..
im sure no homework will get done though, but seriously.

AHHHH , ------------->40 FUCKING DAYS TILL THE SEMESTER IS OVER

9 FUCKING DAYS TILL I GET MY CLASSES
10 DAYS TILL I APPLY TO SALISBURY

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


crazy crazy crazy
this is all happening so fast


i kinda want it to slow down..

today

Today was a yogurt and grape kinda morning.
Yesterday kaitlyn and sarah came over to "watch" this dvd for sociology..
it was at 1.
We actually played the dvd at 4.
and it finished playing around 5.
notice i didnt say we watched any of it.
we're terrible
but it was so much fun! love those girls !!
and sarah had to leave with david to go watch a movie..
so than oh duh
we joined them!
soo much fun

minus the 10$ticket fucking fee.
salisbury is ridiculous.

We watched the men who stared at goats
it was a decentt movie
than we hit up ihops
yumm

than my parents started harassing me threatening to lock me out.

I love my life huh

EITHER WAY GOOD NIGHT!!
i love these girls!!
we're kinda like the leaders of the green team
we mostly talked about the parties and stuff we have to plan
but monday we have to go harass teachers to support us by giving some credit to students for..supporting us.
lol
monday we're leaving around 8am , getting some breakfast together and going to talk to student council or w/e their called so we're an official group
and once we get the funds, we're going to get some moolaahh!!
not to count the thousand dollars we collected with fundraiser.

i never thought i would like chesapeake.
But im going to miss this.

Butt yeahh! we're already planning tokyo steakhouse w/ all our members to celebrate us becoming an official club : )


Cold cold cold!

She stole the flowers out of my car!


She was wiping the tears cause these freaks cry when they laugh.

it was good night :)

heyyyy girl.

Ok blogger.. i have to break it to ya.
today was.. MY THIRD DAY OF WORK!
yes.. i got a job.


(dont hit me!)


i actually expected to hate it.
but i am SO glad i got it!
i love my coworkers i keep meeting more and more and making more friends
(crushes?)
and its like playing a fucking video game
i love it!
it feels like going to school..except i will attack people over customers
like i LIKE doing the work?
is that weird?
i think so.
i actually didnt want to LEAVE??
ive made alot of new friends
and i feel so much more..awake and up.
and tommorow is my day off and i m going to fucking enjoyyyyy it!
some friends are coming over to watch this gay as shit for class than me and sarah are prob going partyinggg.

hey hey hey.

hey.


im enjoying life right now.

and ok, being around cute boys has never hurt anyone.



(((:








oh ,, and i promised pictures.
whitney has YET to get them out of her camera , i thinkshes scared to
but either way heres the ones that igot before my cam died.



doing what i dooo besttt..





She looked SOO pretty!







XOXOXO

rose

so..

I had to blog.
Yesterday was in one word.
CRAZY, in ever sense.
why did i bring my camera..DEAD? fuck.

So lets start with the one picture i did take




This was us..
well.
minus nicole me and jon
pregaming
righttt before the citation.
sweet..


But we didnt let us ruin our night.
went to this insane party
but there was too much people and few beers
so why did i call douchebag like a dumbass
i think i am the douchebag sometimes.

the first thing i remembered this morning was cussing his friends out giving them the finger yelling FUCK YOU really loud like a stupid bitch because i wouldnt get in the car cause if everyone wanst getting in the car then i wasnt
and they were calling douchebag a pussy cause he wouldnt leave me. which ok made me kinda happy
but in the end everyone was alrdy on the way whitney called and so i headed to start walking

stupid action #2
i saw two guys walking towards the party so i thought hey why not just walk with them
their names were matt and rob and i doubt ill ever see them again
but matt put his hand around me and since they were going to the same party it was whatever

till i saw the car mikes friends were in leaving which to i started saying WHAT THE FUCK cause he actually left me
but he was actually walking behidn me
which im glad bc
rob and matt seemed too happy to be in my company

I dont know why. but when people drive by
they have the need to honk their horn or say something stupid
and when one car said something stupid
douchebag snapped and was getting ready to fight like fucking drunk idiots
they even took it as far as yelling that theyll fuck his gf.
me? ha

anyways, i had to hold douchebag back from fighting
and then comes the broken finger nail.
which im going to have removed by a doctor.

can i also mentioned i kinda stole someones shoes for msot of the night?

it was a good.
yet crazy night
every party kept getting busted
and i made out with douchebag the rest of the time

and i regret it
i just want to sleep
and sleep

and sleep.








blog, have i shown you my belly button ring?





If whitney ever decides to post the pictures from her camera.
i will make sure to put them up.

love,rose.

Eres casi el hombre perfecto

eres casi el hombre perfecto el que busqué por tanto tiempoel que me hace vibrar la piel y el esqueleto..Tu serias el hombre perfecto pero sólo tienes un defecto

Your almost perfect,
But your already someones perfect person
and there , lies your only flaw.

















Oh and in a less , more serious note.
I really have a problem
I used to think it was funny how i abuse retail therapy
but whenever i have money
and i feel down
i HAVE to spend it, just to be excited about that.

Im not coming on to a healthy start.
My bank accounts are hitting the ground.

ugh.




love,rose.

OH..&&&

I cut my hair.
it really needed to be....
and it is kidna short for me
but it feels SOOO gooooooooooooood!
and so healthy! :)
i feel lik wearing it down without a problem now! :0)



maybe not the best pic but...
ill post more up:)

which reminds me.
im loving black nail polish ANDDD.
I nailed the presentation today..
hollaaa.


peacexoxox

:)

Ellloo
im happy to report..

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S stands for satisfied.
U stands for unsatified.
which is anything lower than a C.
and in fact, my lowest grade is a STUPID 77% in sociology
not cause its a hard class but because i missed some things
ugh!
the rest are A's and B's..
for now :x
big projects coming up.

gaggg.

also

big sexy bitch is making my life pretty great.....
and me and paulie poppinkins.. aka mr perfect and me are talking again
i missed him! and now we're just bestfriends :)


life's pretty great.


that is all.

Reasons why;

I should not have a boyfriend.


1. Im a very possessive person.
2. I have bipolar tendencys.
3.I dont like playing nice all the time, so i go out of my way to cause problems.
4. Im a moody bitch.
5.I expect guys to read my mind , i refuse to explain myself because i believe i shouldnt have to.



i would come up with more
but i dont want to.



hows everybody?
im just dandy.

yup ,yup.

i want to also point out that
while playing wii w/ big sexy bitch
i got super fucking sore.
and now it hurts to move my back and both my arms
and that, is just sad.
and a big hint that i need to go to the gym again.

love,rose.

Rose,

"how is being 18?"



"its okay"

Better luck next year

In about 4 minutes

i will officially be 18.
How about tommorows going to be good
plus this weekend getting shitfaced will be even better! (:


Ill update latahhh.



love,rose.

2 things;

Im hungover as fuck.


and two,

the german comes home today
so its CLEAN FASTER THAN THE SPEED OF LIGHT time.

i have to move out of my room..... yay?
not.
most the worst of all ,i have to do both these things together
i have to work all day when i feel like trowing up, my head feels heavy and im just by default in a bad mood.
i really dont even want to go to mikes party tonight..
but i think i will , just cause.
i need the break.
ill just try to limit my intake,come home. and sleep.


sound good? yeahh!


sleep sound good right now? YEAHH!!


but i cant..gotta get the fuck up and work, ugh.

Im kinda glad at this point, i odnt have like a real job i have to go to constantly
this, this is nice.






not really
sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11























love,rose

i thought i told yah

Imma star.

Psychology is kicking my ass.
im down to a B
and i missed a homework
i gotta step up my fucking game!!!!

hopefully that wont drag my grade down terribly..
i think i need to invest in a better planner
one that ill like keeping next to me 24/7..
like that coach one..eekk!
talking about coach! my birthdayy (: eekx2
hollaa!!
on and in MY deffense.. i looked for a job.
and theres one place that is deeply considering me because i know the whole staff
or well,they know me.
but im kinda dreading working there.

blehh.

My foots itchy.




and,

the german comes saturday.
Shit lol, thats tommorow
i just love how i just realized that
really..
the next 2 weeks will be a pain.

atleast, i HOPE its 2 weeks.



life , in general is going pretty gewwddd.
i love the people ive became close with.
and the people i might (:
but i dont wanna jinx it!!

My birthday is in FIVEEE dayss!
hollaaa at yo girll.

love,rose.

maybe i take your money, please.

As promised..Haul/product reviewsss!


DISCLAIMER: This is how these products worked for ME , my hair, and my skin.
take it for what it is.







Hair;

Garnier Fructis;

Surf hair-


This is a texturizing which i actually happen to really like!
unlike most creams, like promised, this dries to a "matte" finish
it doesnt leave ur hair feeling icky and slimy, basically
it really dries MATTE.
i LOVE this stuff to keep my messy bang in place!
smells good, and for about 3$ at walmart.



Shine spray;




I bought this on a WHIM.
My hair has been giving me hell lately, and when i dyed it darker
it just wasnt doing it for me, it looked so.. BLEH
I was debating weather to get this shine spray or the john frieda
soo glad i bought this one! it REALLY adds a healthy, none greasy looking shine to hair!
andd , it was again, only 3 bucks ;)
oh, and it smells good!
so if your hairs looking dull, deff give this a chance!






Tressemme;




I REALLY wanted to give tresemme a chance, their so cheap for such a huge bottle!
and i saw this new baby come out, and hey, it sounded just like what i needed!
it claims to heal damaged hair from heat and chemicals.

Umm..disappointment!
this makes my hair feel very icky and heavy, not in a good way either.





I bought this mousse hoping to be able to have , well , what it says
flawless curls, this claims to moisturize ur curls and give it hold.
nope.. no hold whatsoever.
so of course, i had to pass! this went back!!


overall ,im not very happy with the tresemme line, i used to like the heat defense spray
but now i really wonder how much it really protects my hair.
i think ill stray from this brand.


Herbal Essensses;



not sure if ive mentioned this before..but i SHOULDVE..
i honestly DONT hate my curly hair anymore, and its all cause of this baby
it gives my hair ALL the hold in the world, without making it extra crispy, my curls manage to most be very soft and not frizzy at all, lovethis stuff! and to think i bought this as a last resort cause i only had like 3 bucks left.
im nto sure i wouldve ever tried it otherwise!



toussle me softly spray gel

this stuff is nowhere near as harsh as the set me up
i wouldnt use it on my natural curls
but when i have my hair straight, i could spray some of this on
put my hair in a bun, and BAM waves!
this stuff is awsome for anyone who wants way without having to use heat.
love this! and it has castor oil which will make ur hair super soft (:
yay!










Makeup-



Mac rubenesque paintpot-




Ok, elle (allthatglitters21) LOVES this stuff , and i mean LOVES it.
and always has, so when i got the chance i picked this up
when i swatched it on my hand it looked a GORGEOUS peach with pink undertones

But i have to say im dissapointed, on my actual eyelid , it just blends in to give a sheen
which really wasnt worth the 17$.. but ill just keep playing with it
maybe ill learn to love it as much as she does.



Loreal true match blush in soft sun


this is my NEWWW favorittee blush! its just gorgeous very natural looking and VERY pigmented
really just any color you pick (i also love the great range!) will be awsome (:
promise!


Rimmel eye kohl in black magic




can i PLEASE get my money back for this? in my hand it comes off a nice color
but on my actual waterline its hard to apply. Ill stick to my gel eyeliners thanks

AND , the ONLY different between this and a 99 cent NYC eyeliner
is that this is a BIT softer to apply with.. NOT worth an extra 3 bucks though!




(more to come!)

My face is

My face is going through puverty , no joke.
I used a mineral powder last night when i was playing with makeup
now i have , NO JOKE
about 5 little red bumps on my face
their disgusting ,hopefully they go away soon!

:-(

um i went into walgreens
got the generic oil blotting sheets andd this eyeliner i was hoping to findd!! (:


Its the wet n wild cream liner
ive heard really awsome stuff about it
AND..unlike the hip cream liner that ive gone through 3 of them cause they ALWAYS dry out too fast, it was only 3 something, compared to the 12 bucks
yes theres alot less products but..oh wells.
we'll seeee!

and i used both for school this morning and umm my face is still on! (:

ive gotten alot of stuff lately and havent even updated you guys..IM SORRY!! :(
Ill do a big collective haul/review of all the stuff i got
or maybe just the stuff i loveeeee!
this week is BOO.
class is BOO!!

wednesday is date night with kelseyyy! yayy.
i need something to distract me from boring school.

oh and also! my hair has lighten up quiet a bit :) so light now its a nice dark/medium brwn with my highlights showing through again. yayee.
i thought this hair dye was going to be PERMANENT. phew!





Love,Rose.

its safe to say

i REALLY miss my light hair...

alot, alot..

lets just hope the color fades.

Im not saying i HATE my hair color now
i just.. idk :-(


Im going to go job hunting soon
(dont i ALWAYS say that???)


but i reallyyy want a job!!
aka, i really want some moolahhh!!!



umm
i dont feel all that well today
sleeping somee.

Because you live

And breath



can we say oldest , corniest song ever?
except for the whole backstreet boys sound track
anyways..





i like thissss..


because you liveee girrlll.. my worlldddd.. has twice as many stars in the skyyyy.


i wouldd deff drunk karaoke thisss!!



i just saw a book review..and i WANTTT this!!




Im adding this to my birthdayy listt..
as of right now its the coach wrislet
(im double thinking spending money on a straightner.. i dont want a chi anymore cause
theres so much more better ones out there.. idk!)
boots.
and i guess this book huh.
oh, and a credit card so i can build up my credit
and a bank account with some moolah in it.

am i asking for too much?

Love,Rose.

As of right now

Im doing shitty in both of my favorite classes..
why? whyyy..

ugh.

Psychology and sociology
OK
so i KNEW that second classwork was due last week
but i just HAD to keep putting it off
and i knew we had an exam
but i thought id be OK with just reading over fast over our notes.


Sociology;
Theres really nothing i can do.
i didnt know the conversations were points
and i cant get them back
now all i can do is keep checking for the classwork.

We're learning in freshmen seminar (huh, who knew?) about handling college
we took a quiz that pinned down all our problems from test taking to not taking
and we wrote ways we could help those things..

so here.

Sociology i got down

but psychology
how can i get a better grade there?

Go to the library and really find out how she wants us to write papers.
Be on task, dont put things till last minute. (dont wait till later to do something u can do now)
make sure your doing it right.
Study , study , study! when your bored.. pick up the psychology book and go over the chapters.




in all other classes im doing pretty good in..
blehh..september is really ending huh

Oh ANDD
greys anatomy was..idk!
i watched every second of the 2 hours..but i think it was all the shit happening from george dying and all the drama that it wasnt GREYS ..
but next episode looks AMAZINGG!!
so.. now i have even more reason to look forward to every tuesdayyyy.!!



oh. and i dyed my hair dark brown again.
i guess i couldnt keep a promise.

i need help.




Love,Rose.

new segment

"Research" i guess.

where i post useless things ive looked up and sound interesting to me.



Seasonal Depression;


and at this point, i wanted to put my 2 cents on it
but i dont feel like writing..so im pretty much going to steal off this website

What is Seasonal Depression?

(Also Called 'SAD', 'Seasonal Depression')

Seasonal depression, often called seasonal affective disorder (SAD), is a depression that occurs each year at the same time, usually starting in fall or winter and ending in spring or early summer. It is more than just "the winter blues" or "cabin fever." A rare form of SAD known as "summer depression," begins in late spring or early summer and ends in fall.

Symptoms

People who suffer from SAD have many of the common signs of depression: Sadness, anxiety, irritability, loss of interest in their usual activities, withdrawal from social activities, and inability to concentrate. They often have symptoms such as extreme fatigue and lack of energy, increased need for sleep, craving for carbohydrates, and increased appetite and weight gain.

Symptoms of winter SAD include:

• Fatigue
• Increased need for sleep
• Decreased levels of energy
• Weight gain
• Increase in appetite
• Difficulty concentrating
• Increased desire to be alone

Symptoms of summer SAD include:

• Weight loss
• Trouble sleeping
• Decreased appetite

How common is SAD?

Between 4 and 6 percent of the U.S. population suffers from SAD, while 10 to 20 percent may suffer from a more mild form of winter blues. Three-quarters of the sufferers are women, most of whom are in their 20s, 30s, and 40s. Though SAD is most common during these ages, it can also occur in children and adolescents. Older adults are less likely to experience SAD.

This illness is more commonly seen in people who live at high latitudes (geographic locations farther north or south of the equator), where seasonal changes are more extreme. It is estimated that 1 percent of Florida residents, 4 percent of Washington, D.C. residents, and nearly 10 percent of Alaska residents suffer from SAD.

What causes SAD?

The exact cause of this condition is not known, but the influence of latitude on SAD strongly suggests that it is caused by changes in the availability of sunlight. One theory is that with decreased exposure to sunlight, the biological clock that regulates mood, sleep, and hormones is delayed, running more slowly in winter. Exposure to light may reset the biological clock.

Another theory is that brain chemicals that transmit information between nerves, called neurotransmitters (for example, serotonin), may be altered in individuals with SAD. It is believed that exposure to light can correct these imbalances.

How can I tell if I have SAD?

It is very important that you do not diagnose yourself. If you have symptoms of depression, see your doctor for a thorough assessment. Sometimes physical problems can cause depression. But other times, symptoms of SAD are part of a more complex psychiatric problem. A health professional should be the person to determine the level of depression and recommend the right form of treatment.

How is SAD treated?

Research now shows that light therapy is an effective treatment for SAD. Sometimes antidepressant medicine is used alone or in combination with light therapy. Spending time outdoors during the day can be helpful, as well as maximizing the amount of sunlight you're exposed to at home and in the office.

What is light therapy, and is it safe?

Light therapy, sometimes called phototherapy, is administered by a device that contains white fluorescent light tubes covered with a plastic screen to block ultraviolet rays. The intensity of light emitted (Lux) should be at least 10,000 Lux. The patient does not need to look directly into the light, but reads or eats while sitting in front of the device at a distance of 2 to 3 feet. Light therapy is safe and generally well tolerated.

Minor side effects of light therapy include:

• Eye strain
• Headache
• Irritability
• Fatigue
• Insomnia

At what time of the day and for how long should I use light therapy?

Recent studies suggest that morning light therapy is more effective than evening treatments. Using this treatment too late in the day may also produce insomnia. Many health professionals today prefer to treat SAD with 10,000 Lux for 30 minutes every morning. Patients have shown some improvement within 2 to 4 days and reach full benefits within 2 to 4 weeks. The symptoms of SAD return quickly after discontinuation of light therapy, so light treatment should be continued throughout the entire season of low sunlight.

Even though they generate enough light, tanning beds should not be used to treat SAD. The amount of ultraviolet (UV) rays they produce is harmful to the skin and eyes.

Can I prevent the onset of SAD?

If you think you have symptoms of SAD, see your doctor for a thorough examination. Your doctor will want to make sure that these symptoms are not caused by another form of depression or major medical illness. Other types of depression can result in harm and even suicide.

If you have been diagnosed with SAD, here are some things you can do to help to prevent it from coming back:

• Try to spend some amount of time outside every day, even when it's very cloudy. The effects of daylight are still beneficial.
• Begin using a light box upon the onset of low sunlight (fall season), even before you feel the onset of winter SAD.
• Eat a well-balanced diet and include sufficient amounts of vitamins and minerals as recommended by the FDA. This will help you have more energy even though your body is craving starchy and sweet foods.
• Try exercising for 30 minutes a day, three times a week.
• Seek professional counseling, if needed, during the winter months.
• Stay involved with your social circle and regular activities. This can be a tremendous means of support during winter months.

is it possible..?

Im sooo fucking hungry
i had a slice of pizza at ziyas earlier
n thats the only thing ive eaten since around 6 last night
fuck fuck fuck..
im hungry
but im so tired, so worn out, so exhausted.. i cant even go downstairs to make something
i have no energy

psychology exam shitted on my life
ill probably get a -c on it..fuck my life

fuck it
SO TIREDDDDD

im so hungry
i NEED food
but i think im going to pass out..and eat later instead
ughh..one more day till the weekend..


fuck me.
i just thought about the stupid music quiz tommorow..fuck
fuck fuck fuck
school is consuming my life i NEVER have a break!!
tired.
tired
itred


and im goingt o sleep now.

bu bye

its the first dayy of fall!!

im SO fucking tired
i REALLY..REALLY..REALLY hate freshman seminar.
like..ALOT.

i fucking hate that its late.
i fucking hate that its 50 minutes.
i fucking hate that its 50 minute of explaining how to do something i can do in 2 minutes.
and i really hate the people in there, aka my HS class.

im tireddddddddddd
tiredddddddddddddddddddddd...
2morrow is wednesday.. i have to study for a psychology test..
and write a draft for an english paper..
and fuck my life in the ass.

i want to sleep
i just woke up.
im trowing gymshorts&a t on
freshening some of my makeup
and making myself go,because attendance is like, half of your grade in there


but atleast tommorow it will be wednesday...
which will lead to one more day than the fucking weekenddd!!!







i want to sleep..im going to force myself to go now.
come home..
and sleep..sleep..sleep

(: :(

The countdown ----->
says theres only 86 days left in this semesterr.. say whatt?
haha.

grrrrr..
its6am right now.
ive been up since 5.
actually, 4:45

but i layed around for a bit ha
and ive managed to almost procrastinate the whole time

i need help haha.
i studied for communications not really worried about it.

and i figured out the music quizzes are only 25 points..so im not THAT worried about it.
atleast now im not freaking out convinced i have to drop the class lol.
dont ask..

yawwwnnnnnnnnnnn


i want to go back to sleep..its getting cold
and even though i LOVE winter
i HATE waking up freezing to death
it makes waking up that much harder.

yawn, yawn , yawn.

yesterday while talking to whit and her roommate i realized that i kinda like being at peake
nicole's also taking sociology but she says its really hard in there
while my sociology class is actually pretty easy
so its alot less money..AND easier..for the same credit? umm yess?
so im deff going to be taking like 5-6 classes next semester or just as many gen eds as possible so i can get them out of the way and not have to take them at bury.

yawnn!!!


ok.
im going to keep reading over this music terms
i got class early as fuck..fml.
its only tuesday.. but 2 more days and its not only the WEEKEND..but its also fucking


GREYS.
FUCKING.
ANATOMY.


ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i LOVE greys anatomy! im so excited!! ive been waiting for months for the new season to be outt!! yayyyy. itll be an amazing start for the weekend (:



love,rose.

fuck.my.life.

I had suchh a fun dayy!! (:
i love kelseyy im really glad we hungout
and i lovee whitney for introducing me to the magical SU bookstore
that place is fucking hugee!
and i got a lanyard..me and kelsey are going to go shopping there for hoodies hahah

yes..were going shopping at a bookstore.
i love her!
and there were lots of creepy people at the mall.
but it was funny.

i cant waitt for the weekendd!


ahhh. im so tiredd!!
i got 2 fucking quizzes tommoroww.. and i havent studied a bit.
im waking up really early 2morrow and studying..though FUCK ME.

ughhh!!!

is winter break here alrdyy?

ummmm

hello everyonee!
i have a 3 page sociology paper to do
so of course id be on here.
ive in fact
done almost everything possible EXCEPT the paper.
sad? yes.



I went to walmart to buy some random stuff i didnt rly need
(as usual)
and on "clearance" there was this toner
gasp! how long have i been looking for something like this!
I read some reviews online,and the word "a little dry" scares me.


So im making.. a promise.
i guess
that i will not dye , or put any chemical products in my hair for 30 days.
and im returning the thing and with those 8 bucks im getting some deep treatments
YAH.


haha
i REALLY need to work on this sociology paperr..
i love this class
but the work he gives us is LKFDSLKFDJSFK

asshole
actually, this is one of the most confusing ones to me.
i guess its REALLY not helping that im sitting here
when i could actually go sit down and read.

huh.
and fucking 2 tests tuesday
communications i dont mind
but music?! ugh.
ughx3443325

i really hope that class doesnt drag my gpa down
im going to be pissed i dont even like it!

i guess im getting off here..and reading.

huh.





love,rose.

hahah

(250): Ask me how many people I've slept with. Because its changed since I last saw you.
(1-250): I saw you 20 MINUTES AGO. You need to stop this.

hahaha. new favorite website EVER!!



(518): how the fuck did you end up in georgia? you were here at my party dry humping some chick 2 hours ago
(404): so you mean to tell me that there is no way you can get me?

(970): we had sex three times last night.. but now im just wet from him crying on my stomach about how much he misses his ex.. awesome

(503): I don't even know what he looks like, all i've seen of him is his dick
(541): the rest of him looks just as crooked




(443): you tried to scramble eggs in my dryer last night. i want you here in 15 minutes to clean this shit up



(704): We're pre-gaming then going to chuck e cheese's.
(919): If you're joking I'm going to be sad



(609): is it appropriate to call someone “ a tasty piece of bitch?” This is time sensitive.


(940): just watched an entire episode so you think you can dance for head. so wasn't worth it


(713): Just ran into that chick u called from my phone and left her a MSG bout how she has aids
(979): Ahaha, good shit


(614): see you put your penis in her and it's like an ignition key to start the crazy


(330): She said she could kiss it, just not put it in her mouth. Because that would be cheating..



(203): she called me screaming that i shouldn't ignore her phone calls, because she's not trying to get me to hang out with her and she doesn't want to be my girlfriend, she just wants sex.
(860): what did you do?
(203): i asked her out. that's so hot.


(610): No, I was feeling sad because all of the other girls were like model-skinny. But then I remembered that I had big boobs and went to hit on their boyfriends.



(650): the ice cream truck is coming omgomg
(1-650): dude, it's 2 am.
(650): but its COMING


(732): you sent me 45 texts saying "meow?"
(1-732): did i?

(901): people would bow to what i just did to her vagina

ummmmmmmm

yummy turkey, cheese and tomatoe sandwhich, how i love thee.


I finally know what schools im applying to!
i crossed out penstate.. because for 1, their way fucking expensive
and dos, they seem really dedicated..and well..hard.

so

Itll be

Salisbury, Towson, and frostburg


Like tina put it..

Salisbury is my want school.

Towson is my reach school.

and frostburg is my get in school.


i guess.




in reality
i just want to go to salisbury
but towson isint sounding half bad eitherr.. idk


im sleeppyy!
so , ill keep working on this later.

I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor

and ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes.


ahh! i forgot about this band, gewwdddd god!

Today i met with someone to make sure i got everything straight to transfer
and she said that i was pretty much on the right track, yayy.
theres a "transfer night" , almost like college night
but more specifically for transfer students, she said bury would be there.
and not just bury
i decided to apply to pen state and towson and possibly another school
i just WANT to make sure, that if salisbury says no (which at this point i doubt)
that i will be accepted elsewhere.

Right now im procrastinating , i just finished a sociology paper and working on a psychology one.
blehhhhhhhhhhhh!!


September is ALMOST OVER
WTH?
(In a good way!)

Serious, its almost the 20th.
and you know then itll be a couple of creeping days until october hits.
aka my BIRTHDAYY!!
but most importantly.
right now im really looking forward to (and i KNOW this sounds weird as gdgdkhfjk)
But i keep thinking, "how long till November" Nov 16th to be more specific..
and as to why you might ask..welll becauseeee!!
its open registration for next semester classesss!
( i know im a loser.)

I picked out

Art 101
English 102
Humanities
Wellness and fitness


that right thurrr is 12 credits.

ummmm.

thats 28 credits

and then im thinking of maybe taking 2 online classes during the summer
because that will put me in a better place to transfer to towson (30+ credits) if i dont want my SAT and highschool shit to be read over.


ummmmmmmm.....................
what else?
i should really finish this paper huh,




love,rose.

Life

If this were a story
Id start it off with


"As my parents yelled at me to get in the car, i hugged the girls goodbye. I told them id be back soon and slammed the door shut with anger, as my parents went on talking about the group of people outside the dorms and how they were all probably drunk. I checked my phone and trew my purse in the back, I didnt feel like talking. And its when it hit me , "This is it." "


I dont think anyone knows how hard it is to feel that your in the wrong place.
You know where you should be , but you cant be.


People from this town make me sad

There is so much bigger and better things out there.
But they DONT want it
they WANT to stay here, they dont want to grow

why?
it really makes me sad.


but in reality..

who cares?

IM SOOOO READYYY TO GET THE FUCK OUT.

i love salisbury
i love it , i love it , I LOVE IT.

i HAVE to do perfect at school
because i NEEDDD to get the fuck out of here.
though i know i am, theres no doubt in my mind.
and well ,if theres any in yours.
you stay tuned my friend.
Join me in this journey called life
and watch me make the best out of it.

(corny right x: )










this are whitneys roommies
and yes they are HER roommates.
But i want to steal them.

Their all very different from each other but all get along great.
i hope my roommates are as amazinggg!


(we both look terrible and really stiff here hahah)

Heres a picture of me and marshalll
shes changed so much its ahh
i swear this town has like something fucked up in the air
shes so much more outgoing and like, herself
she doesnt have to put up an act like in school.
Im really happy for her, and of course
VERY VERY JEALOUS.

but she also inspires me to do better.
cause this town really does make me sick (:



Love,rose.

Confidence

Today in communications the people that missed the previous day finished up on their presentations about well, themselfs.

This lady walked up, she looked around 30-40's
she wasn't what most people would consider her, beautiful.
She was a bigger lady.
her hair you could tell wasn't really done, maybe some gel to calm the curls
her roots needed to be touched up.
she was wearing clothes u wear around the house.


and this is going to sound really strange


but why am i so jealous of her?


she mentioned in the presentation about how she stopped being shy
how she learned to accept herself and just not care anymore
and you could HONESTLY tell.. that was the way she felt
she didnt give a shit what anyone thought, she was who she was and everyone who didnt like it could bite it.


Now me?
Im someone who people considered well, pretty.
i think i can look pretty, i think i can look HOT.

but why do i feel like a piece of shit?
why do i always feel UGLY,like my hairs too frizzy , my makeups not flawless
i find everything wrong with me
and repeat it over and over in my head
your not good enough , your nails arent done, you dont look your best


why cant i just feel beautiful
i want to know how she did it
how she just accepted herself , and learned to love herself.
she made it sound so easy , and i feel like walking up to her and asking her
but that would be weird.
i want to do that, i want to feel beautiful even when im not trying.
even when i DO try.



so thats why , im terribly jealous of this women who wore sweats to class.
i wonder how i could be like her..
bleh.


love,rose.

ummm...

So , my lifes kinda perfect right now.
even though chesapeake college is well..RIGHT in cambridge
ive met alot of amazing people
it feels good to be away from the same cambridge trash ya know?

me and perfect guy are doing amazingg...hangout on saturdayyy? eeek!! nervous much?
yes.
excited much? FUCK YESSS.
im starting to question how i ever went out without knowing him
without txting him all day , without expecting his calls every night?
haha aghh im such a loser.
but he makes me extremly happy..lifes just amazing right now.
overall.

ive made so many new friends which i love
and it brings up another thing that annoys the shit out of me.
THIS DUMBASS BITCHES
will go out of their way to have classes with the same people they did in highschool
are you fucking serious? really?
REALLY?
why didn't you just fail the 12th grade and stay there another year
really i mean i dont see the difference.

*sigh*

like i said.
seeee yahhh in a couple of years working here as a waitress haha.

these ,GIRLS are like..AFRAID to grow as people
serious signs they wont make it out in the real world past cambridge.

ANYWAYS..

I met this guy who attends 3 colleges at the same time! talk about commitment!
he happens to attend salisbury SU , which i think its really coool
plus, his really cute ( : and we get along really great so.
he asked me to hangout tommorow so thats gonna be nicee i believe =)


lifes just..kinda amazing.

and get THIS.

the girl that sits next to me in communications class..is a FUCKING LICENSED COSMOTOLOGIST
I LOVE HER
I feel like if i could sit her down and ask her a million and one questions.. i WOULD
from a 3 minute talk i learned SO much from her! and shes so nice and cute.
i have a little girl crush :X

haha!






My classes are going great

Honestly.. im perfectly content with the way things are going.
and i feel like they can ONLY get better.




me and some peeps hungout after class well because..OUR TEACHER WAS A NO SHOW.
and talked about diff things..
like how people PLAN OUT to go on drinking drives..wtf?

haha.
ahh
im excited for 2morrowww!
gotta carry my bookpack though :X grr! and i SHOULD start working on the psychology paper.
just because i want to have it done with way ahead of time and get it out of the way.
ummm.







:)

Love,rose!

My room.

Is still as messy as shit.
i woke up this morning with the set mind goal of
IM GOING TO CLEAN THIS ROOM
also because mr perfect brought it up.
his such a stalker , ugh.
haha♥



ANYWAYSSSSSSSSSS..

My weekend to do list.

-write letter (:
-go through clothes/ bag for salvation army.
-Go through my old makeup , trow some out.
(or box it and put it in the basement)
-Organize vanity..AGAIN.
-Clean room.
-Clean computer (erase old pics blahbla)
-Read 12 page paper for psy.
-Write a shopping list.
-CLEAN PURSE!!
(which ive been meaning to do since..last may? haha,he said i carried half of my room in there)
its only a quarter though!
-Shoe shop!! a mustt.
-look through my classes and finish homework.
(update later? maybe)



Why did i txt you before? why?
why couldn't i just let it die?
and now, im the only one to blame about this
what did i expect? this is what i wanted..right?
fuck, im stupid.
Im sorry , but im going to have to add another reason for you to hate me.


not so much love, rose.

=)

celebrating our one WEEK anniversary 2morrow night!!!
hahahah ahhhhh!!

♥

i heart him , alotttttttttttt.
everyday its just another day we know and learn about each other.

couple of nights ago i brought up
"you know its weird..but like weve known each other for like 4 days..but i feel like we've known each other for way longer"

"wow, im not even kidding i swear i was thinking the same thing earlier its so weird wow"

that conversation was amazingg..we really just opened up it was..aghhh!!
even when he said "now that we're being all nice i kinda miss us fighting."
"me too."
"i hate you"
"i hate YOU"

hahaha ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. (((( :


god, thankyou for putting this boy in my life.
Tomorrow ive only known him for a week
yet just like that his the most amazing person ive met in a LONG time..
everyday we make sure to bring it up "bitch you dont know me"
"i DO know you , ive known you for FIVE whole days now!"


ahhhhhh...
okay.
Im done.


I hope things only get better
but who am i kidding? EVERYDAY we talk it gets better!






ahhhh... enough of this boy rant.




LOVE,rose.

hello september

I missed yah.
the weather this morning..was cold!
and that excites me.

i want to say this year has flown by
and well , it has.
im super ready for 2010!
its going to be my year : ) i just KNOW it.

I love right now. life.
i love life right now.
Half of the people from my music class were absent today and i was late.
(maybe the dropped out? umm.)
i walked into a talk about a huge presentation but it wont be due till late october
i got extreme confused, and so did my new frunnn
we're both hopelessly confused, so im glad he asked me for my number even though i was going to ask for his.
so now we can be confused together even though his presentation is way later than mines
which I thought i was getting a good deal!
and he also goes to salisbury u.
i think its cool he comes to peake also just to take extra classes ha
i would deff not put that much effort in.

Communications is turning out to be my "fun" class.
today we were drawing out comics for this assigment.
and i started out with a really good square out of 4.
till the teacher said we have 5 minutes left.
than we all freaked out and decided stick figures would be best.

On a side note, the "cool black guy" that sits next to me in class comes in everyday smelling like he just came out of a party, that distinct smell of weed and alchohol mixed together.
and he always comes with a warm cup of coffee.
So he overall , smells strange, but its better than just smelling..bad.

ANYWAYS i gotta start working on my presentation about..well me. when she mentioned props..the first thing that came into my mind was my makeup brushes!
their long overdue for a deep cleaning anyways so ill do that.
I think ill post a picture of the 3 things i decide to take

and perfect guy broke my heart last night
in a good, amazing way.
i cant believe i actually found a guy i dont have to hold back from
that says im "mean" or doesnt get my sense of humour
he gets and has the same one as me
so our conversations consist of us nonestop laughing and getting on each others nerves.

to me ,that sounds perfect
i havent even known him for a week
but his just , wow.
ive always known that to me
there is either SOEMTHING there right off the bat,or there isn't
and well..there IS.
and ok, so his nice..really nice to look at.
but id never tell him that since IM the conceited one.
and im secretly loving every minute of it.


but ENOUGH of alll thattsss!!
nappy timee! class later ugh :(

Please, please please please please

Dont stop making me smile like this
please please please please.

c:

and
:C



Love;
I like that we yell at each other on the phone whenever were arguing about dumb stuff
and even if its a little irritating i cant help but smile even when you wont let me finish a sentence
i love that your honest, and i secretly love how you call me "..conceited.." under your breath.
and how you make fun of everything i do and make me feel stupid and when i yell at you to stop you just keep going
but at the same time , it just makes me feel like i can be more of myself
like i dont have to hide anything , even if you laugh at me for it.
I love that you laugh at stupid stuff, and i mean really stupid stuff thats not even funny
but its cute that you do anyways.

and this probably really uncalled for ,and if you ever read this i would be really embarrassed which i know you probably wont cause your so clueless

but last night after that little stupid argument
when you kept saying "are you mad at me?"
"im not"
"yes you ARE why are you mad at me?"

everytime you said that, it honestly felt like a stab in the heart
i had no clue why it felt that way , and why everytime you asked i almost started crying

until i thought about it.

Im not used to that..
im not used to them wanting to know what they did wrong
im not used to them giving a shit
and the way you kept saying it, hurt?
the way you sounded like you honestly cared that i was upset just i dont even know why
the way you kept demanding i tell you why i was mad, the way you kept saying "you ARE upset why are you mad?"
completely broke my heart
i hate to admit it, but im NOT used to that at all

and honestly? i might just love you for that.
(but not seriously!)

the way i was with 'insert name here' and the highlight of my night was you txting me
i hate to admit it but

i dont want you to turn out like every other guy, please?





Life;

Life is good

this morning was BAD
but thankgod it solved itself out..i guess.
i am the luckiest bitch alive.
Some of my books got here. which is EH.
i got the music CD'S , but not the book.
I got the handbook for english which he admitted we probably will never use
and the WRONG reading book.
I still dont have sociology book which i desperately WANT
we havent really "needed" it for homework or anything but i love the things we go over in class and want to look over them.

which brings me to the next topic..


School;
Psychology is thought by the cutest teacher ever
she is SO adorable and shes so happy and outgoing and adorable its like you just want to hug her.
Maybe its cause we havent really gotten into it
i like what we went over today different types of psychology strategies but we'll go into dept for each one of them later on.
which im excited about , but for some reason im somewhat more interested in sociology now? idk

I love that though
who ever thought id ENJOY and look forward to my classes?

and note to self..
books i need:

Sociology(x2)
English "i say we say"
Music 101
Communications

and i also need a binder and more notebooks.. blehhhhh!!
2morrow i have communicationss! and we get to finish our little gay project were we draw and talk out a situation..
our dude has to lay off a couple of workers
and i came up with the fact he should have a "lay off party"
and we're working around that
i think i established myself as the blonde of the group.



and on a side note,

i had a dream about asshole ,which was really uncalled for
but in the dream ,he was hurt
his face was very scard , like he had been in an accident
i wonder if that could have anything to do with what happened today?
but also he had pictures laying next to him and when i picked them up
in every different picture i saw
he was different
he wore glasses, he dressed differently
he was just constanly changing
and that really bothered me


idk what that means
i dont care to find out, i do hope nothing bad like that happens to him though.
well im off to wash my hair with this purple shampoo.
i know what your thinking
"rose didnt you JUST decide and loved to have darker hair?"
yes, but i have honest problems
now i just want it to be lighter again though its getting lighter on its own.
and next week , i will be blogging about how i just bought dark hair dye.









dont judge me.



love,rose.

Love

I think im secretly afraid of it
Sometimes i feel that when i find someone
im so terrified i wont like them , that it becomes tense

that i have to put tests to see if i really like them or not
and if i feel like i like them , its always in the back of my mind
the question of "do i really?"
Its happened so many times, when do i even know whose right and whose wrong
its almost to the point where
everyone is wrong for me.

You really made me smile tonight, but how do i know it will last


Im so ,sick.
Of thinking yes this might work
till i find that one thing, that one thing that makes me run the other way

sometimes i feel like i do that to myself
like im just trying to find an excuse not to like someone
but at the same time
i feel like im doing the right choice
but how can it be that SO many guys are wrong for me?


I just want to be happy,

will you be the one?

AH!

Ive been desperately looking for a wrislet because i now hate my wallet its so big and annoying to carry around with me when i just want to head out really quick
and i saw this and of COURSE I DIED

Must must must have! i wantt



Its from the new coach poppy collection
AHHHHHHHHHH CUTE MUCH?
i want the real thing not a fakey like EVERYONE has so im ordering it off of coach.com


Im soooooo GETTING THIS.


ok.
now i have to clean my room for this lol.



Hope that there isint a blackhole in my closet or something, i wouldnt know.
If im not back in a couple of hours, call for help.



on a side note, i might go job hunting soon
yeah it sounds like a HUGE pain in the ass
but id like to have money to spend on things like this without asking my parents for it


buh anyways.
peace

wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

this is the most..awkward.. weird.. "wtf" thing ive ever seen
but its so fucking funny





enjoy,sorta

and

the last thing i will say about this..
i know how you dont have a life and you hate to see me doing good so you have to spend so much time trying to get me down..

But im just saying..
if a struck of bad luck were to happen to me for oh whatever reason
Something must be going bad in the air..
I guess.. So if everyone..
including your sister were to read up on a little story called "my life"
feauturing a little..couple of incidents involving well..the main character
and the mains character sister's well what? fiance? boyfriend? person shes been with for years..
were to leak out..
i would how that would play out
I LOVE writing stories!!
it would be quiet a project i might add ( :
maybe i could even submit it to my english class, what do you guys think?
But of course i wouldn't post it just here.. i mean , im not sure how many people read this
id make sure every person possible would get a hold of it.
Everyone should get the enjoyment out of it


So possibly look out for that ( :!
with other juicy secrets in it also , the main girl is such a character!
another crazyyy story right after the other
I can include all about her family..those that she has loved well..WAY more than others
is all i can say about that.

but i guess we'll see to if i take time out to write about it = )
and dont worry , everyone you know and even those you dont will!
you'll become a freaking star.



Mucho love, rose.

People that have no lifes

Make me sad.


It makes me really sad that i know your reading this.
And you probably check on my page.. on a daily basis.
I thought it was cute
but infact its kinda..creepy
please stop following me, please.. i mean..dont you have other things to do with your life???
maybe you should take up a hobby?? i dont know??
just please .. step away from this website..and stop stalking me.
its kind of scaring me..
yes i mean your lifes so shitty you want to drag me down too..
i UNDERSTAND that
and i mean i encourage you to do whatever it takes for you to be happy
but..
im sorry , im bound to do great things..
you need to accept that..take a deep breath..and move on..


Maybe you should go back to counseling
I dont mean to spill secrets , but maybe that disgusting thing that happened to you is getting to you more than it should..i dont see any other excuse why a person should be so...

yeah..





Please stop stalking me

love,rose.

((((((((((:

today my mom wanted me to show her the car i wanteddddddddddddddd1!!

flkhjasfdhfhasfhaslfkhsF.


OK.

im done.
i think were going to look at cars this weekenddd..
i wont be getting one than but the fact shes questioning about it

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


....
ok.
im done.


Just got done with my first college paper.

it was due sunday

bc i vow to never procrastinate with school work again.

how about that first weeek..

This is weird, and im really dumb founded.
I used to hate the thought about going to chesapeake,its where all the losers who are going to nowhere go.
But in reality , ive came to realize that the fact that you show up
that you attend
and that your taking the classes , how does that make someone an idiot?
an idiot, would be not going to school at all.
(sorry , i dont mean for this to offend anyone!)

i always pictured teachers
to be serious, smartass boring people.
that dont even stop and interact, they just go on and on with the lecture till someone asks a question.
I happen to love all of my teachers (minus one that i havent met yet)

My english teacher , he says "like does that make sense?" with this cute little hand sign
i assume his gay.

My sociology teacher is french , thats good enough of a fact for me
But his professional yet , connected with the class
he trows in a lot of interesting random facts which i love
i think ill really like that class.

My communications teacher..is a complete dork
and has an extremly goofy laugh ,but she actually makes people laugh
and well shes so far, making the class fun
im actually super excited for our first 2 presentations

my music 101 teacher , he has an adopted chinese kid?
that kinda just makes him cool on his own
out of all i would have to say his my least favorite
BUT , a favorite none the less.

and my one day freshman seminar
the teacher seems pretty laid back and cool
soo thats good.
nothing to complain about

I signed up for a psychology class which i dropped earlier because the schedule was shitty..
but this was a diff time and actually makes it so i dont have to go home and back for my other class.
yay much?
Im excitedddddd
i was going to wait till next semester..
but i like love sociology right now
so i know ill probably fall inlove with psychology.
i hope!

the advisor kept saying
"thats a work load.."

isnt he supposed to be encouraging me instead of making me scared!

that putttsss me at 16 credits..even more yayy?
im not sure if freshman seminar transfer but im pretty sure it will
but with or without..
ill only need to take 3 more classes next semester and ill be donzooo!

I really expected classes to be harder..
but i actually enjoy doing the work?
arent i supposed to be miserable with paperwork right about now?
i want to start working on my presentation for communications like nowww
but its not due till next next week i think


and thats my whole imput in school.


i hope everyone is working on reasons to smile

love,rose

Oh.



Im not going to lie, i really feel stupid.

ahhhh!!

You hating me is time consuming
cant we kiss and makeup..
please?




Yesterday i went for a little back to school final shopping books and stuff
and i KNEW we were hitting up macys
BUT
i stayed away from mac (wow!) and actually decided to buy clothes for once
because honestly , i got some amazingly cute stuff with the same amount of money i spend on 2 makeup items from mac :S thats bad isint it??


i got this AMAAAAAAAAAZZZZZZZZZZINNNNNNNNGLLLLLLLLLLY
sexy ,hot, short , mini black dressss
omg
its SO hot
ok.
i gotta stop doing that.
Basically its amazing.
I love it its short ,bubbly , very light cloth , and its straplesss.
i gotta find me a mannnn
so i can pair this baby up with a pair of cute heels (which ive been collecting ( : )
and some cute earings and go to dinner or somethin something.


I got 4 shirts, and 2 scarves besides that.
oh and after that i got this cute cute cute pair of black knitted boots.
i want the fall to be hereee!!

my hair has alrdy lifted to a light brown..
grr!!
im considering using "BLACK" on my hair.
because every other color seems to lighten way too fast on me.



i got a orange mini stapler also, just thought id trow that out there.








ANYWAYSS.

class was.. ummmmmmmmmmmmmm
lets just say
im seeing way too many people FROM highschool, FROM my grade to be comfortable
its like highschool mixed in from a couple of older ladies
idk how i really feel about that.
My sociology class is through video
i gotta say the whole thing is cool/awkward
you never know at what class his looking at
and when he called on me to introduce myself
i had no idea where to look, even though i reallly wanted to look at myself in the screen ha
One thing i found hillarious ,yet a little sad.
its like honestly , almost ALL the girls inthere had babies
"hey im blahbla, this is my 4th semester at peake, and i have a 7 month old"
"hi, im blahal, first semester at peake, ihave a 2 year old"

there were atleast 10 girls with babies
one girl jokinly said
"we should have a playdate"
and it was funny because well..

i meant it when i said almost all the class had babies.

now i feel uncool
i never fit in!

We went right in with a topic of beauty and all media blahabala
which actually takes me to a deffensive set ,idk why
but in a video it mentioned how beautiful women will try to please men , they wont argue with them they'll become like a toy to them or something

OK? WTF
i feel that if a women knows shes beautiful
she wouldnt take any bs from any guy
but i just kept my mouth shut because well of course everybody went with the
"i totally agree blahbla"

i think im going to like this class either way.





English..
at a glance
when the teacher stepped in
i think he hasnt even mentioned sleep in the past week and looks rapist ish.
is that bad?
once he started talking i came out with 2 things

1)his gay.
2) his cool.


for being a college english teacher, he has alot of , teenage talk like
"do you like know what i mean??"

everybody laughed everytime he said something like that.
i think im going to like him.


I dropped physcology.. (which i am REALLY sad about because it is what i wanna major in)
but i COULDNT do it
i cant go at ten am, come back around 11, leave again at 2 something leave again at 3 , than go again at 5
my brain will NOT take that , and neither will my fucking gas
So im taking music 101
sounds EXTREMLY boring..specially at 8:30 am.
but atleast ill have that and communications back to back.
then that stupid freshman seminar at 5-6

bleeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.


has it been a semester yet?






back to school outfitt;
(yues im putting it on here because i havent worn nothing but oversized t's and gym shorts all summer..i was proud of myself!)



Brown shirt from macys
its v neck in front AND back : ) so cute!
belt from my sister? lol
white shorts, ring and earings from charlottes russe


(when i got in the car this morning.. like i said i havent worn anything but t's all summer.. so when i wore this v neck, i realized how grossly pale my chest is! it was disgusting! i was like wow wtf this picture doesnt do any justice but just look at my arm and then look at my fucking chesttt!! like everything but my chest is black :S this my friends.. is why i adored self tanners, but their too bothersome, so ill just wait till the rest of me ligthens up instead)




gladiators from marshalls ( :