Is it a good/bad thing?

I think ive wrote about this before here
but i think itd be appropriate and to my benefit to blog about it now.

I have a problem
when i think about it deeply i think maybe its not such a bad thing
but than again those who dont let it out like i do dont always have to be the bad people

what im talking about is
Im a pretty spoiled child not in the sense that my parents shower me with gifts and everything i ask for.
no
Instead its more of
i know my limits, i know what i can get away with
and when i dont get it
i turn into a bratty selfish angry 5 year old
and i bitch and i moan and i do stupid shit until i get my way
and thats when it hits
when my parents bend or i see that ive won

i break out in tears

I cant help it
they never fail to come out, either.

Because once i see that they start bending and changing their mind
it hits me
like what the fuck, im being a spoiled child i yelled at you and did stupid shit to piss you off
dont give me what i want!

i feel so disgusted and angry with myself and i feel like a huge brat

and ta da

i start crying

its not a wimpy cry
i always try to hold it back
its ridiculous but i dont cry when im sad
i cry when im angry


so

Is this a good thing because i realize that i was being a huge brat?

or is it a bad thing because..come on.. i got what i want wtf am i crying for?



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