secrets

I need change and i always feel like there's going to be a day where it will be right to do this so called change

but in reality everyday gone by is wasted


Hi

Im rosanna and when im not at school or at work chances are im sitting on my bed like i was earlier reading manga or watching anime. I do it obsessively and i watch so many i cant keep track of the names but i do know that my current favorites are "kimi ni todoke" "dengaki daisy" "maid-sama" (cant remember the first part ) and really just alot more. I have 4 siblings and my mom and my dad and we're all born in dominican republic and im now a "us citizen" and i resent it because i feel like im just a "wanna be" american like i gave up my rights as a dominican but in reality i never cared much about my backgrounds or where i am now. I feel that "pride" from where you are just gives you a reason to be a douche and try to seem more powerful than you are. Actually pride over alot of things can be that , like your parents bank account or jobs. I want to move to a certain place but just the thought of it terrifies me because im a very dependant friend. Which speaking of i have a best friend, the only person i actually will tell everything and anything, she knows all my dirty little secrets and doesnt judge me for it and that makes my life so much easier. I get easily motivated and as easy i lose it. I put too much effort in things i shouldnt but i tryyy i tryyyyyyyyyyy .and i feel that sometimes thats the only thing you can do i cant say for a 100% percent that thats the best thing to do but i feel that if you fail so many times you dont even bother to try because you know you'll fail i feel its best to try again and again because thats the only thing you CAN do to make yourself feel better & i think after sometime that it will solve itself out whether its the wanted outcome or not.

this is a whole lot of babbling. im not going back to read it over or fix it so enjoy