hello

Hello, my names rose,
and most of my tears are cried alone.

Hello!
My names Rosanna, or rose for short.
I'm currently attending Salisbury U.
i currently live at Salisbury and room with three very nice girls
6 month anniversary with my wonderful man is coming up

life is good.


xoxox

4 months later

I skimmed through some stuff

what was i bitching at?
my life was great! awsome!
i wake up and stress hits me like a cold glass of water on your face.

Its not bad stress, though.

Im currently working on getting a house with 3 other really nice girls
theres school stuff that NEEDS to get done.
i need a job
i need to improve myself
i need to stop hating my boyfriend so much all the time& be nicer to him.

theres alot of stuff.
but for what its worth
ill throw in i had the BEST summer of my life.
it was filled with trips, adventures, milkshakes and all sorts of feeling.

life is good
just i have way too much on my plate right now
but stuff always workouts for the best.



how are you?

my boyfriend,

me and stephen's first month is coming up on the 25th.
its odd, times just going to go by so fast
but really chill/slow at the same time?
everytime we hangout we learn so much stuff about each other
besides the fact that we always do something awsome when we hangout

aka

baltimorex2
annapolisx3
ocean cityx3
salisburyx21313124

we've been to the mall so many times
went to the movies , nice dinners, zoo, aquarium, we even agreed to come with me to my class field trip to watch a play in baltimore, but of course he had to ride his own car up there cause thats his city & he demanded we walked around so i would take it alll in.
i adore him ,alottt, alotttttt

i was having so many double thoughts on him
and now that i think back
well, even when i was freaking out on the phone with kj about it
i couldnt explain it to her either, or to myself
i was scared and bothered but idk why

STUPID!
this guys not perfect
because he has alot of allergies and i always win our fights and he is way too much into his iphone at times
but i honestly cannot sit here and think of one thing that i want to change in him
his so different from any other guy ive ever met he has such an open mind and is such a good person oh and.. of course his super cute, clean cut & always gets the tab.

but i wont try to list all the things his amazing at

i dont wanna jinx it
though i dont think that'll be a problem

<3





xoxoxox

:X

:x




umm ... hi!..?

Sorry i havent updated in a year :-(
but ive been busy.

i like my boyfriend alot so im usually either always with him , kaitlyn (my bottom bitch) , or my bed.. so i never have much time to just sit here and blog.


spring break week i worked out..a total of 2 days
this week? total of ZERO.
but im blaming it on my monthly gift.
and honestly, i dont know what it is about dating but we always end up eating out
i should start packing my lunch or something

im soooooooooooo readyyy to start up next week though..
i finally can buy my flip cam and such but that should be on the other blog.......

idkk.


im having alot of fun

life is pretty great right now im not going to lie.


adsfkjakldfjas.


i will try to keep this shit updateeddddddddddd



xoxox

hapiness?

Why do i have everything ive been bitching and moaning about for months at hand, and it makes me want to throw it and run the other way? Sometimes i think i just dont want to be happy? Im being too much of a girl right now, a over thinking, over emotional girl & i dont like it. Ive been trying to think really hard of why i feel this way, i can honestly say i dont miss what i had before, but sometimes i catch myself thinking "wait , why did i even want this again..whats the point?"


fdsdfn,asfjldjlsjakjfs

^^^ thats my head right now, it literally hurts to think this shit over.

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secrets

I need change and i always feel like there's going to be a day where it will be right to do this so called change

but in reality everyday gone by is wasted


Hi

Im rosanna and when im not at school or at work chances are im sitting on my bed like i was earlier reading manga or watching anime. I do it obsessively and i watch so many i cant keep track of the names but i do know that my current favorites are "kimi ni todoke" "dengaki daisy" "maid-sama" (cant remember the first part ) and really just alot more. I have 4 siblings and my mom and my dad and we're all born in dominican republic and im now a "us citizen" and i resent it because i feel like im just a "wanna be" american like i gave up my rights as a dominican but in reality i never cared much about my backgrounds or where i am now. I feel that "pride" from where you are just gives you a reason to be a douche and try to seem more powerful than you are. Actually pride over alot of things can be that , like your parents bank account or jobs. I want to move to a certain place but just the thought of it terrifies me because im a very dependant friend. Which speaking of i have a best friend, the only person i actually will tell everything and anything, she knows all my dirty little secrets and doesnt judge me for it and that makes my life so much easier. I get easily motivated and as easy i lose it. I put too much effort in things i shouldnt but i tryyy i tryyyyyyyyyyy .and i feel that sometimes thats the only thing you can do i cant say for a 100% percent that thats the best thing to do but i feel that if you fail so many times you dont even bother to try because you know you'll fail i feel its best to try again and again because thats the only thing you CAN do to make yourself feel better & i think after sometime that it will solve itself out whether its the wanted outcome or not.

this is a whole lot of babbling. im not going back to read it over or fix it so enjoy

Oh &

Im getting this
and im getting this because shaycarl<3 and alot of other youtubers i love use this

I am extremly excited.

Is it a good/bad thing?

I think ive wrote about this before here
but i think itd be appropriate and to my benefit to blog about it now.

I have a problem
when i think about it deeply i think maybe its not such a bad thing
but than again those who dont let it out like i do dont always have to be the bad people

what im talking about is
Im a pretty spoiled child not in the sense that my parents shower me with gifts and everything i ask for.
no
Instead its more of
i know my limits, i know what i can get away with
and when i dont get it
i turn into a bratty selfish angry 5 year old
and i bitch and i moan and i do stupid shit until i get my way
and thats when it hits
when my parents bend or i see that ive won

i break out in tears

I cant help it
they never fail to come out, either.

Because once i see that they start bending and changing their mind
it hits me
like what the fuck, im being a spoiled child i yelled at you and did stupid shit to piss you off
dont give me what i want!

i feel so disgusted and angry with myself and i feel like a huge brat

and ta da

i start crying

its not a wimpy cry
i always try to hold it back
its ridiculous but i dont cry when im sad
i cry when im angry


so

Is this a good thing because i realize that i was being a huge brat?

or is it a bad thing because..come on.. i got what i want wtf am i crying for?



um.

GUYS!!!

I dont want to neglect this blog..most of my current crap will be stuck in the weightloss blog since its taking up most my life as of right now.

anyways


i do have something ive been thinking about alot that i feel needs to be wrote down.

is that grammar correct? anyways.



I feel like with the weight loss, i dont want just the weightloss
but the weightloss is a part of what a really want

to take control

im 18 and even though its incredibly obvious that even though you've been breathing for 18 years now, does not mean your an adult.

But since it is technically written down in the law that your mostly responsible for all the stupid shit you do. i want to make this a good year to remember.
the year where i took control of my life and made myself into a better person, i want to love me
i want to do things i didnt even consider attempting
i want to live!

My self image is something that might always haunt me
but i feel like if im at a point where i dont consider myself fat than it would be enough to go by

i want to do so many things
i want to learn to make people laugh
i want to take long road trips
i want to be able to make random people admire me
i want to be someone i consider amazing

im excited, i feel like weightloss is something i have control of actually doing
the other stuff isint as real as everything else (does that make any sense?)
you can measure your weight and how much you've changed it
but how about personality wise?



idk.

either way im excited, and ill try to keep this updated as much as possible. but mostlyy follow my weight loss blog!


xoxox

weight loss blog

link in the side ---->

holy shit.

For starters..
can guys STOP TURNING INTO SUCH PUSSYS?!
im befriending by all this guys who were dbags in highschool via facebook
who were known to be players and hardass idont cares!
now their all <3333

fuck
just STOP!!
please


i say , AGAIN


when did it become OK for straight guys to be SO fucking gay!!!!!!!!!!!!


Sigh

I hope this is just cambridge thats like this... i hope
like dating someone whose over 5 years older than you and it be OK
are you stupid.
are you stupid?

yes i said that twice

well heres a little hint......

he can go to bars and drink
and you cannot

that should be enough to get your mind clicking.

*sigh*







its still snowing, well
not literally but
it snowed all day yesterday and the cars were literally buried.
im looking to get this explorer! random but its exciting.

ANYWAYS.




Me and kj went to see dear john last weekend and
i dont know what to say
it left me speechless but not in a good way

i cant say it was the BEST it couldve been
but i cant say it was bad , either.
it was sweet
the whole "5 years later" thing ticked me off

specially since it was from the same writer from the notebook it could've atleast designed a diff plot.

argh, idk
i liked it
channing is so hot
and amanda i have a new found respect for
i used to think WHYYY HERRR!

but she was really cute in the movie so.
and she is actually very pretty



she has a very angelic look to her once you get past the mean girls scene where she could predict the weather with her tits.


i want to blog more, but ive grown really inpatient
im getting what ive heard quiet alot on facebook, "cabin fever"


blahhh

Hello

How are you?
Im good.
um um.

Not alot has happened worth blogging..
Its been alot , and i mean ALOT of snow
around 18 inches
and its going to snow today and tommorow again..and i dont expect to have ANY school for the rest of the week : )


idk....i just thought id stop in and say Hi!!
im currently looking for an suv : )


ill update later though!!


ba bye!

Please hear me out, next time.

Im sorry.
Im sorry that he changed,
Im sorry that you did too.

Im sorry that you hurt and i couldnt be there for you when you needed me the most.
Im sorry that i was too stupid to show my face
Im sorry that you had to go through it alone
Im sorry that i couldnt give you what you
needed most.
I hope that you can forgive me one day.
I will never forget you, and always love you.
I will learn from the mistakes that were made , i guarantee you they wont happen again.
I promise that i will be everything you will ever need.

So please hear me out, next time.

To do;

before school starts(tommorow)

-Straighten hair
-Clean Room
-Do laundry
-Paint nails
-Organize makeup vanity
-Deep clean brushes
-Finish watching vampire knight.
-hangout with bestfriend
-Sleep

------------------------------------------

actually, scratch that last one

I have not slept a wink
my throath starts feeling funny yesterday and sure enough i cant swallow my own saliva now.
AND that other thing happened to, so yes.
This is going to be a terrible first day.
its 7:30am and im not sure why im awake

night night

skfjsfjasfsfsa

Im so irritated with everything right now
things will get better, things will get better, things will get better.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhgggrr

I wish school would start already.


For several reasons

Its weird but ive been itching to learn
i miss being stressed, i miss learning things
im excited to go back also!

I feel kinda bummish.

i hardly work at all so i have too much time in my hands.


BUT the other reason is
Im beggining to get annoyingly impatient
Im kinda extremly ready for salisbury.

We went on a tour the other day and it was wow
ive always seen the dorms and the outside views..
but inside its a whole nother story..everything is so clean and high tech
im too exciteddd!!!

=))


oh and i did get this cute hoodie and sweatpants..just so i can start bumming it from an early start ;)


agfhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.





Im considering 5am runs again
except since its freezing out, id go to the Y.
i set my alarm this morning but it really was just not happening..
Oh well, todays another day!!



"I got ice in my vains
blood in my eyes
hate in my heart
love in my mind"

-drop the world - lil wayne



^^^ paul made some mad fun of me for reciting this.
he is such a fagget and he made me watch american idol
his gonna be in annapolis and im gonna be working

ummmmm.


really

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I gotta go to workkkkkk





Ughihhh

i want a fucking weekend to be able to do SHIT for once!
ble :(


Not last night but the night before recap;

Sneaked out with kj.
Went to pick up 'j'
'j' is gorgeous.
wawa.
j's friend, brian.
k's party.
met some awsome people but a nasty beer party is fucking pointless.





J's house.
played quaters, stripped.
brians house to eat steaks at 5 , but left
kissed j
stuck in traffic with some crazy shit aka helicopters rounding the area cops everywhere
home at 6
work at 10 that morning.




love my bestfriendd!


Random fact: she walks around aimlessly when on the phone.

****reminder to update side timers******
im officially going to college babyy!!



yes i did go to chesapeake but..to me that doesnt really count.

I need a SU hoodie finally
its well deserved.


Love, Rose.

Its official

Your dearest is going to Salisbury Universtiy in the fall of 2010.



Yes my heart WAS beating out of my chest.
The envelope is kinda huge so i was kinda wondering whyd they send me all of this if it was just a rejection letter.. but my heart was still beating sooo fast i was having a little panick attack.


But yupppppp,

IM SO EXCITED! i was getting so sick of the waiting and wondering but yuppppp!
one more semester at peake and im outtie ;)

thankyou godd!


so happy!

Im still in shock, so i will talk later

happy new years

Dammittt, another years flown by.

2010.

my,my,my.

recap?

alright,


I got over ex #2.
I became friends with ex's #1 girl.
I lost slutty , nasty, stupid friends.
I made awsome friends i adore.
I met alot of douchys, that i adore.
I met paulie poppikins.
I started driving.
I graduated highschool.
I got my first job.
I was blonde.
I tried tanning.
I whiten my teeth.
I went to the beach with a creep.
I started community college.
I applied to a university.
I got my belly button pierced.
I experienced college parties.
I drank till i threw up.
I actually kept this blog.
I shopped with my own money.


I cant think of anything else to put in here.
boo.




Heres for a brand new year and for the good things to come.