Dear boy,

im sitting here thinking getting frustrated and blushing about this.
so i have to get it out of my chest.

WHY DIDNT I KISS YOU!?!

why did you think i kept pushing ---- away and trying to hide us kissing
i didnt want to make you mad, not that you would care
i was hoping you would.
because i liked you ALOT more, i secretly keep hoping you'll get in contact with me
but i think the fact that we met through ---- is keeping you from it.
like ,im his piece of meat.
but im excited, the ONLY reason why i will hangout with ---- again is to see you!
if his not with you, ill "nvm" it.

but back to the kissing part
when --- was away from us for almost half an hour
i have no idea why i didnt kiss you.
i was actually praying --- wouldnt come back
i loved being so close to you and that you hugged me and how you had your arm around me and even though i was drunk you didnt take advantage of it like --- tried to.
even when you got infront of me and got all in my face.. and then claimed u wanted a hug.
WHY DIDNT I KISS YOUU! WHYYY.
i wanted to! so bad!!
im getting extremly excited, i think i might see you tonight, well i know im seeing ---
and i refuse to hangout with him unless your with him.
and kissing --- was ok, but i think i wouldve liked kissing you alot better.


shithsisishtist
im such a dumb sdgasddsff

but DLS can wait!

im alot more excited to see you!







i think this is why i havent had boyfriend in so long...
me keeping feelings for the same guy for over a short period of time is just impossible
oh well , i love it im not complaining.



Guys really are my favorite past time<3