Wish list;

A black shiny car;





Knee high black heels/boots.





Complete set of sigma brushes (64$)





Mac book (1000$+)




Farouk Chi Straightening iron (72$+)






Nars Casino bronzer (30$)




These are all things i want, and since im not looking to sell my organs or prostitute myself any time soon, (ha. ha.) Their completly out of my reach.

I want a job, i think ill look for one once the middle of august rolls around since most kids that work around will be going off to college.
umm.

So i went and

Kinda registered the classes, i have all my first semester picked out but were going to have to come back next monday to finish everything.

But im soo exicted :))

Even though ill be juggling 3 classes every tuesday and thursday , and another 3 monday and wednesday

I think its english 101 , communications , Some brush up math (because i fucking hate it), psychology , freshman seminar , and sociology.

But i could be wrong though i think i got it done.

Than ill be done 13 credits downnn!
Because the 3 for the math class dont count :(
gr.
But than ill just be able to take laid back classes spring semester ill only need 11 more credits : )
and i might take it easy second semester and take some summer classes but who knows.

Anyways after all this mess
Im salisbury bound, basically because both my older sisters graduated from there.
I dont mind it there, ive been plenty and really like the campus , more than that
im looking forward to being the fuck away from home!! and i actually think this all comes in handy
Because im under 18 , my mom deff did not have any plans to let me dorm at bury.
But it'll be my choicceee!!
yay yay yay.


ANYWAYSS.

my dad is such a spoiled brat.
Even though he is the fun parent and the one that works alot
He likes his things, up there.
Like the 32 inch tv he wanted, well he got.
Than he got the ipod touch and he broke it.
And even though a replacement is on the way.
He decided to get the iphone
but nooo , he didnt get the older one which retails alot cheaper.
He got the NEWEST ONE.
his such an asshole.
I keep telling him i hope he drops it and runs over it with the car.
Its so cool though the screen is sick its very sensitive to touch you ahrdly have to touch the screen to "touch" , and it films videos aswell as has an amazing camera! his such a spoiled brat.
and me? im stuck with like a 1000 yr old krzer.



But enough of that rant.

Im kinda excited about college classes
and unlike highschool , i actually have a reason to doing this
like i have a goal to doing good
in hs i just bs'd it because i told myself i was going to go to beauty school and do what i love
but of course that dream was crushed in all kinds of ways..
By pretty much EVERYONE i know.

And now i just dont feel its worth it.
I want to go to college for all the wrong reasons.

For the fun.
I dont even know what i want to study for.
But i have a year to decide that.



what else ,what else.


Oh yes!
Ive been driving everywhere lately, its exciting.
But i feel like if i didnt have one of my parents there beside me
I couldnt do it
But i dont mind it, ive been driving for less than a month
I have 5 more to get over it.

yay yay yay yay : )


ummmm.. i need to start saving for a car.
But i know i wont haha.
I need a job.
I need the 24th to be here.

I need my life to start back up!


Love,rose.

Look of the day; Green smoke

(excuse the hair, i havent straighten my hair in like... a month. im letting it groww out haha)









On face;

-Mac studio sculpt concealer nc30
-Rimmel bronzer in sun bronze
-Mac studio fix + to set everything
-Mac mineralized blush in intenso
(the highlight)


I skipped on the foundation because its summer, and i dont really like to have my face caked.
I decided to skip the blush and go for a more natural look because my eye was a green color and green doesnt exactly look good with pinks/reds.
So when using greens , try to keep the face and lips neutral.




On eyes;
revlon cream pallet in "not just nudes" the lightest shade as a base all over my eye.

Revlon spring moss eyeshadow pallete.
-The olive shade (2nd to last) all over the lid with an eyeshadow brush
than take a smudger brush (can use pencil brush) and went under my eye with it too
i took the last shade , a very dark army green and went in my crease with it with a crease brush
but it wasnt dark enough so i added a very dark/black shadow from some random pallete and i darkened up the outer v and blended it with an angled eyeshadow brush.
I used a very skin toned, MATTE. eyeshadow for my highlight.

HIP eyeliner in black
Mac Plus Lash mascara



On lips;

I used revlons nude attitude paired with a sonia kashuk lip gloss in sophisticated (a peachy nude color)

Tadaaaa.

And tell every girl shes the one for me

Have you ever gone on a water binge?
its actually pretty nice.


When i read some peoples blog and stuff i wonder to myself
and think like, wow?
they sound really fucking fake/really fucking stupid.
and some part of me wants to tell them off.
But the sane part of me tells me to just not even worry about it.
and then i also hope that i dont sound that stupid

but i kinda know i do
I like blogging , i like writing and scribbling and keeping journals for 2 weeks
because i can look back on them and laugh at myself or see how much ive changed.

did i mentioned how good water binging is?

Ill be right back.


I think water bottles are such a waste of..
of resources.
Honestly why cant companies make one decent bottle that you can refill and take on the go?
I say this bc my moms gotten in the habbit of buying packs of them
and its just like ,why? so much wasted plastic. When i can just refill one?

I have a bottle of smart water who has been with me for the past couple days.
I like it its 23oz and its a pretty thick plastic with a cute little cap thing.
and when you look on the inside theres a little gold fish that says
"spring water is for swimming.
Smart water is for drinking."

cutee.

ummmmmmmmmmmmm...


I always have like a million ideas to blog about through my days.
and they all just kinda disappear.

Did you know?

That gum can be a very useful craving suppressant?
I say craving because im not even sure that most people know what being hungry really feels like
I do however know what its like to want to shove everything in front of you down your troath
(sorry for the image)
I call those cravings
their all in your head your brains shooting at you to eat that delicious slice of pizza
to eat that cookies , to lick the spoon to the last drop of ice cream.
Those are cravings
when your really hungry youd be willing to eat things you dont even usually go for
maybe even something you "hate".


Back to my point
Gum gets rid of the "EATTT" voice inside of your head.



and talking about hunger suppressants.. i wanttt thisss!




"Huge Lips , Skinny hips"

Its a lip plumping, glossing , starburst smelling appetite supressant.

Check on my wish list!
i want i want.
the name are also , too cute.

Red Sole
Worship Kate
Kitty Poledancer
Lychee Martini
Love Your Thighs
No Panty Lines



i think thats about it for now, bu bye.

Umm uum

The 5am thing, fail.

So i stuck with the garage thing, even though it gets insanely hot.
hey i gotta do it.


my phone got wet.
and lost all my pics and contacts.. yay.
(not)
so im using my sisters krazer
(which is in pretty good condition, way better than my chocolate was)
until i can get a new phone.


Um i drove today at night with my dad, i t was ok
its getting alot easier
it feels almost natural to.

My sisters leaving for germany for 2 weeks.
yay?


idk what else to talk about..
i still need to go and get my classes schedule.
i think ill do that 2morrow.

gnightt.

successful

I want it all thats why i strive it
dis me you'll never hear a reply for it.



Can i leave everything and everybody from my past behind to never look back again?
If i went the rest of my life without speaking to some of these people ever again
ill be OK. happy even
the fake friendships are too painfully awkward.
its like we were all putting up a show for the past 4 years
and now that its done you look around and think
"wtf have i been doing?"


thats how i feel anyways.
Like if you hold a puppy long enough it'll calm down and let you pet it
untill you offer it to go out the door, and it runs and never comes back

yes i just compared myself to a puppy.




Anyways
i love summers
this summer is different
im not drinking and hooking up with random guys

but im working so much on myself
thats why i like summer
i can do whatever i want
really
i could stay in my closet for weeks and just be ok with that.



i kinda lied about giving my legs a week rest
the past 2 days ive revisited my treadmill in the garage along with the stat bike.
its ok
its so much easier than running outside that it makes me feel like im not doing as much work as i should i dont really like that, but since my sleepings not fucked up anymore
the idea of waking up at 5am sounds painful
but i gotta do itttt
I think im going to try it 2morrow morning.
update on that later.





"It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not."

My favorites;

Lipglosses- Victoria secrets beauty rush line
(which is on sale nowwwwww!)
their amazing their very thick but their not sticky and gross.
and they have an amazing color line.
my favorite is strawberry fizz.




Foundation-
Revlon true match
beyond natural skin matching makeup
its very light coverage , perfect for the summer. i love it because i dont usually like tinted moisturizers because my skin tends to go on the oily side. so this is kinda perfect.



Bronzer-
Ahh i just got my third one of this
Rimmel natural bronzer
ok , this stuff is pretty amazing , it gives the prettiest glow and its MATTE!!
i was checking out mac bronzers couple days ago but they most of them have shimmer and ok who wants to put shimmer all over their freaking face!
and this stuff like like.. 3-4 bucks.
so so worth it.


Nail polish-
Revlons passion punch shimmer
but i think it was discontinued : (
so..
its just a very pretty hot pink with a very soft blue/purple undertone


Drink-
ahh , do i have to pick?
Hi-c juice boxes in strawberry kiwi kraze.
i put these in the fridge every night and enjoy them as a midday snack



Lipstick-
It really hurt me to pay for this
because i dont hardly use lipsticks and ok , 6-7$ to ME sounds insane for a lipstick and there isint even that much product in there!!
Revlons matte line nude attitude
but its so worth it , im deffenetly repurchasing when its done.
Even though its a matte color, its not dry and cakey on the lips.
and such a pretty nude!


Hair leave in-
Im trying out garnier fructis leave in conditioner because its like what..2 bucks?
and it smells good, and so many rave about it!
and a little review.
its ok, its not very moisturizing at all
but it does control frizz , it really does help the texture of my hair
but at the same time it doesnt do much for my extra damaged ends.
so my favorite has been and still is
Herbal Essences Long Term Relationship Leave-In Split End Protector
i love it! its so thick its almost like a conditioner and it smells like heaven and the smell actually sticks! but this might not be the best option for people with not so coarse hair.



Skin Tool;




that oval thing on the left.
i loveee itttt!
i love doing it on my legs because it helps cellulite.
cute word right?
but you prob have some too!
and if you dont
ok i hate you.


moving on.


Shower product;



Dove nectarin and white ginger body wash

This thing truely smells like heaven , i look forward to taking a shower to just smell thisss!
the smell doesnt linger in the skin , but a very much softer, almost like a natural sweet scent
because you know we all have a natural scent.



Will update later;

i officially love drake,

His kind of amazing.
and i pretty much love all of this songs specially;

-Lets call it off
-want this forever
-still fly
-succesful
-sooner than later




and of course, who didnt watch degrassi and loved the crippled by his friend , who eventually learned how to walk jimmy?


just a quick post.

Little update;

Its been officially a month since ive had any bread.

i know, weird right?
for some people their weak foods are brownies (which is sitting right infront of me at the moment and i would probably trow up if i put that inside of me)
pizza, cookies, ice cream etc.
mines is bread

im a sucker for bread
well, was.
bread, yummm..
toasted, just baked , crunchy on the outside and soft on the inside
baked with some cheese and turkey tomatoes and mayo

that right there my friends, is love.
but bread.. man , anything can go with bread
eggs, any meat, cheese ..anything!!
breads even yummy by itself : )


So yes.
yay me.

i woke up around 6 this morning , with a very nice dream haha.
im excited about something , very.
but thats a secret.

anyways, i miss jogging
i miss getting up and going
i miss watching the pink and blue sky before the sunrise while listening to music.
i miss how cool it is even when it is bound to be a hot summers day.

But even out of walking alot , my legs give out on me
i hate it
im giving it exactly a week till i start back up.
as of now ive just been sticking to a stationary bike, which is ok
but it doesnt give running outside any justice.

i love shopping, and i love mac.

i love mac, and i love how 100$ goes bye bye just like that
and the worst part is.. you WANT to buy everything.
its sick, i know.
but i stuck to only what i needed
studio sculp concealer , plus lash and mineralized natural equaled to about 56$ ?
i believe
well i didnt really need foundation so i put that back.
still , 30$ on concealer, and mascara.
god mac.

aholes.
with extremly amazing makeup products.

um what else what else..im tryng to get this out of the wayy..

umm..

ive lost a total of 17lbs, but thats a secret because im not done.


ummm.

i think thats about it folks
i want to go to a waterpark before summer ends
well , im GOING to.
(:
its ought to be fun.

and um i got my hair dye.. i just have been putting off dying my hair IDK why
i kinda like having my roots grow out because it shows me hair growth progress
but i guess ill get over it.




Umm.. ive driven on the streets twice
once on my way to pickup my dad
and second on my way to salisbury..but my mom made me pull over bc she was convinced i kept driving into the other lane
i so was not!!!
but whatever.

i dont have much else to talk about right noww.. im very sleepy.



love,rose

wtf

why does god hate my life lately?

who the hell gets "shin splints"
ive never even heard of that before.

Its like now that im getting used to jogging every morning and actually enjoying it
and now i cant run for more than a half an hour without me having to limp the rest of the way home.

fuck me , you know.
fuck me.

but im not giving in im going to keep pushing it till it passes

My closets currently filled with;

diet pepsi
juice boxes
ice tea
& green tea

it makes me happy haha.



My matrix sleek look is almost over ,and im bored with it
so right now i am using




the moisture shampoo and the volume conditioner
and not only does my hair smell like heaven
but it feels like it too!
im excited for this specially since im due for a hair dye soon! : )

warning; smell this before you buy it.
because if you dont like it your screwed because the smell really lingers in your hair
(which i LOVEE)



love,rose.

Every girl needs;

a sexy little black dress
-An outfit they feel amazing on.
-The perfect red lipstick (its SO hard to find!)
-Heels that you can walk on
-Go to purse
-Go to hot hook up guy
-Go to friend for when hook up guy breaks your heart



more to come ,im far too distracted right now

yay.

6 months till i can get my license.
sad but yeah.
everyday is a count down.

My life as of right now consists of

5:25am
Wake up. brush teeth. Jog.

6:30am
Cool off, have some water/coffee
breakfast.


Sleep.


Wake up , get a shower, eat a snack , go for walk.
if its too hot or too late ill walk on the treadmill.

9-10pm;
cardio ,strenght training.



Repeat.





Sometime this coming week im going to get my permit & schedule classes at peake.
I intend to transfer to salisbury fall of 2010.
Yes thats alot of hard work
but more on that later.

school starts august 24th.


and thats basically my life right now.
no drama.
no boys.

Simple enough? : )


Love,Rose.

Im sorry i havent posted in so long.

One thing i have to say is..

Im so excited for the future i really cant wait.


:)

//

Im in no rush to be in love

boy , one day you'll be a man.
oh girl , he'll help you understand.
so , smile like you mean it.






Nobody knows it, but you've got a secret smile
and you use it , only for me

-Secret smile by semisonic




I remember when I found out about chemistry
It was a long, long way from here
I was old enough to want it but younger than I wanted to be
Suddenly my mission was clear

So for awhile I conducted experiments
And I was amazed by the things I learned
From a fine fine girl with nothing but good intentions and a
Bad tendency to get burned


-chemistry by semisonic