i love how

the most most interaction i have with my mom
involves yelling and being mad
and like now crying
shes the biggest pain in my fucking life
and im not just saying this cause im upset
everything that involves her is fucking negativity
fucking yelling fucking pulling nerves


i cant even say i fucking hate her
i dont

i just wish shed go back to DR and never fucking come back

let me rephrase that

she can come back to visit twice a year.


i hate crying my face is all puffed up and my nose is runny
and im getting a headache


and while walking around dopwnstairs yelling into the phone
i kept wishing i could grab something and break it i really wanted to
i infact walked around trying to find ways to take out my anger
but than i realized id get in more trouble if i did that
and i started crying some more

and instead of breaking things, im blogging
and i am calming down.


im such a fucking baby
ugh