i love how

the most most interaction i have with my mom
involves yelling and being mad
and like now crying
shes the biggest pain in my fucking life
and im not just saying this cause im upset
everything that involves her is fucking negativity
fucking yelling fucking pulling nerves


i cant even say i fucking hate her
i dont

i just wish shed go back to DR and never fucking come back

let me rephrase that

she can come back to visit twice a year.


i hate crying my face is all puffed up and my nose is runny
and im getting a headache


and while walking around dopwnstairs yelling into the phone
i kept wishing i could grab something and break it i really wanted to
i infact walked around trying to find ways to take out my anger
but than i realized id get in more trouble if i did that
and i started crying some more

and instead of breaking things, im blogging
and i am calming down.


im such a fucking baby
ugh

flaws flaws flaws

have i mentioned before?
im like the type of person who'll yell
"well your shirts ugly!"

and then ill feel bad and apologize a million time

if you know me you'll know im truely harmless
and my conscience (why is that word spelled so weird!?) eats me alive


well an addition to that
im stubborn as a mule

"do you ALWAYS think your right?"
"No i just know im right"


im not sure if im at wrong with that or not
i mean truely what if that other persons an idiot and is always wrong?
i know when im wrong , i can admit it
but i wont admit im wrong if i know im right!


anotherrrrrrrrr thing..

im lazy.
I have the capacity to pay attention to something for a matter of 5 seconds before
something else takes my mind
and if theres a challenge ahead of me
if im not 100% into it
than i wont feel like doing it

i cant help it


but there yah go.

um umm

my heads killing me.

but besides that

yesterday it was around the 60 degrees
today it is 40
sunday dropping to around to low as 28.
and monday its supposed to snow


really? lol


i hate rain
well i like it when im inside sleeping next to my window
i do not however like rain when i have to be in it.
its the worst

and yes
im guilty at one point playing in the rain
the furthest i can remember is me being around 7 and all the kids in my neighboorhood
during the beloved hurricane (sarcasm) season
wed go out and run like stupid idiots in the rain
till we got yelled at

ha
i remember being able to stare out from my balcony from the play room upstairs
and see everything blowing away everywhere and the rain
and the when THAT flooded (mind you the house had ceramic floors)
wed play in and even try to swim in it.

good days.


im thinking DR for spring break
i really want to
we'll seee

i lied, one last blog

for the night.

let us pray for this magical wonderful serum




just..thankyou god.




night!

lets just say..this has been

an interesting week..
im too worn out to rly blog.
i got cute stuff today.

and im still working on my hair..


ill tell more about it 2morrow..
my parents are trying to make me go to this model agency thing 2morrow
i really dont want to..
specially since my hair is at a "eh" stage.



bleh

night.

incase you read this

Im not bitter.
But i really did lose alot of respect for you.
it made me sad for awhile that i lose that person close to me (you)
but the you now is not better, but worse.

You use to be so..cool in my eyes

as gay as that sounds.
now your just the idiot that jumped from the bridge cause his other friends did too.

I badly wish youd prove me wrong..
that youd show me your still you
to make an effort that might be worthless

i wish you would.
if you want to make me happy.
i couldnt give you a bigger hint.



Love,Rose

oh & dear you..

Fuck you.

I never even had hope in your
it lasted no more than a day
but fuck you for getting my hopes up that not all guys are douchebags
(i know i just contradicted myself.)
and ha who am i kidding
i just think your really hot and the oldest guy ive hungout with.
but also im very proud of you because i know your doing the right thing



so.. yeah.

p.s.

"I bet YOUR the bad kisser!"


ha.




gnight dear readers.


Love,Rose.

I hate this part right here.

Im in a shitty mood
ive been forawhile

I wish i could just suck it up get over it
cause i know itll pass.
i want my phone back.
But my parents arent very happy about me being suspended
and my rooms yet to have been cleaned
I really need to stop being such a procrastinator
wow i cant believe i spelled that right first try haa.

anyways.

ive also given up the idea of sleeping early
its just not going to happen with me ive realized.
whatever

you can keep on watching me;

Everything she do is like me
From her head to her feet, like me
She's trying to talk like me
Trying to walk like me
Trying to get all the boys in the club like me

Everything she be is like me
Trying to imitate me
She trying to look like me
Trying to act like me
Trying to get on the floor and shake her ass like me


Look at me, you know I'm hot
Look at me, bet you wish you had my spot
You can't, chick, but I'mma let you try
To get on my level, level, get on my level


Haha i love this song
but more than that i dont believe anyone would be trying to be like me
more over because i doubt theyd want to
im pretty "special"
and by that i mean odd and have a very unattractive personality

jussaying.



Im trying to decide if i want honey highlights or not
i REALLY do actually
but im scared of the damage to my hair
my hair literally snaps off at the sight of bleach
and i dont even know if ill actually like it once i have it
i cant stand light brown hair as is half the time
butiprobablywilldoitanyways

because thinking about it over and over is annoying.
ill summit my hair to several hair treatments before dooms day which should be this weekend..

yeah..imwearingmyhaircurlytherestoftheweek.


can i actually pull that off?

ill have to.. ill live.
plus i have to get in the rhythm of wearing my hair curly for summer
and finding ways to make it work for me


im enjoying this all payed vacation from school home.
jackasses.



Love,Rose.

Natalie Mejia

Natalie Mejia

i love her bodyy!

Anyways

Goals weve came up with


Get darker
Get thinner
Whiter teeth
Longer hair



the "get darker" doesnt apply to me as much except i like to tan my body so it looks bronzed.
anyways yahhhh.


I love you karma your the bitch i love to hate and hate to love.

Love,Rose.

I hate

How ive been smiling all day.
im such a weirdo.

Eyebrows

This is a topic i feel the need to stress out to ladies out there.
because i know for a fact its something alot of girls dont take in mind
but have you ever wondered whatd you look like without eyebrows?
yeah, they really do affect your face THAT much.

But more than getting than waxed and plucked

how about filling them in?
i honestly would now die without doing my eyebrows
i feel so..undone.
like icecream without the cherry ontop
they really do make a difference in your face

so if your a brunnete or close to it
you could either use a pencil brown eyeliner
or a brown shade of eyeshadow and fill in your eyebrows with an angled brush

and you'll really notice a difference.. doesnt take more than 3 mins to do
yet makes SUCH a difference.

if your a blonde you could try finding a shade close to your color
or do the smart thing buy an eyebrow pencil for blondes


I love this Revlon Brow Fantasy pencil and gel set
the colors range from

Dark Blonde
Brunette
Dark Brunette
Black

songs that just take you back down memory lane.

dont you have any?



and yes some are this are like wtf?
dont judge mee.


Gravity- Sara Bareilles
Sara-Jefferson Starship
Forever Young- Alphaville
Summer Girls- LFO
Boys in the hood- Dynamite Hack
Forever- Papa Roach
Feeling Myself- Dolla



Up Against The Wall- Boys likes girls


this song reminds of christmas
and it really just breaks my heart, still.
i hope i never relate to this song again
but ive pretty much made sure that i wont.


and here are the lyrics just cause.




It's over
Look out below
And I'm wasted
I still taste it
Yeah it's so hard to let go
So breathe in now
And breathe it out
The forecast
A car crash
It's looking like another...

Breakdown, rebound
This could be my last goodbye
You cross your heart, I hope to die

And I can't deny your eyes
You know I try to read between the lines
I saw a warning sign
And then you threw me up against the wall
Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved at all

No rewinds
No second times
And I won't break
I won't waste, everything you left behind
So don't follow
Just let it go
The weather's, been better
Don't let it be another...

Breakdown, rebound
This could be my last goodbye
You cross your heart, I hope to die

And I can't deny your eyes
You know I try to read between the lines
I saw a warning sign
And then you threw me up against the wall
Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved at all

All the nights you spent sitting nowhere out there on your own
All the nights I waited by the phone when you were going in alone
And all your different faces and all your different ways are making everything a mess
And all I'm saying is that all your different places and all the complications led to this

And I can't deny your eyes
You know I try to read between the lines
I saw a warning sign
And then you threw me up against the wall
Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved
And I can't deny your eyes
You know I try to read between the lines
I saw a warning sign
And then you threw me up against the wall
Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved at all
(Never loved at all)

ugh

I really need to get my sleeping straight..
i set out to go to sleep..
2 hours ago.
its 2am right now

schools gonna kill me if i dont do it myself


anyways, i started my diet/workout plan
and setting out to lose 20lbs
which sounds like alot but not really
and more then that i wanna tone up everywhere.

blah blah blah
im going to lay down in bed now till i find something better to do
cause i know im not sleeping anytime soon.

i still have to clean my room so i can get it painted
ive settled on a pretty blue with pale yellow borders
and the doors and closet will stay white

ill post a picture whenever my rooms done


umm.
nightt!

corny but cute

i stink

and im sticky haha ahh
this stuff gave me a headache
but the colors developing quit nicelyy!

but i rly gotta start working out
ill start 2morrow
and i gotta finish cleaning my room
and i gotta decide the color
i rly wanted orange..but my dad said itd be a bad idea
and it would be a rly heavy color i think..
well i might do blue walls , yellow borders
and leave my door and closet doors white.

yeah yeah?


umm

im getting something done to my hair friday possibly
i dont really want layers now that ithink about it
maybe just get it thinned out and my top layer so it just blends in more with my hair
no color i guess
i still have hopes for highlights but idk yet
i want rly tiny blonde highlights in my hair
um idk
i might do that..
or just light brown highlights..
idk!
ah


one way or another
things are spicing up : )


but for some reason i feel very bummed lately
regardless everything i do
i feel like im doing some wrong all the time..

bleh.

eek coldd!

im spraying my self silly.


with self tanner.

in honor of summer.



:)

To do listt #1

Feb 16- Feb 22

Clean my room
Start Diet
Paint Room (orange :D !)
Start working out again
apply for hours at humane society

im such a freak but..

Really
im excited for summer already
skip over fucking spring!
i want summer to be heree.

actually..spring break.
idk

thats not my point though...

i want heat, and skirts and flip flops and sunglasses and cold drinks and warm water

and ahh!

it is also about time to start getting fitt.
because with summer.. the less clothes the better : )
am i rightt?

i am as impressionable as a 5 year old

& i have a whole new outlook on my goals.
and i wont even admit to what inspired me cause its shameful

but i am excited.
it is very summer themed.



:)





love,rose.

Valentines dayyyyyyyy!

I consider it like..a contest.
and if you dont get picked you just,dont be a sore loser
and be happy for those who won.

aka

i dont have a valentines
but if you do i think its so cute and your lucky if you decided to celebrate it
and not just take it like just some other day.
because thatd be making walmarts and other stores attempt to sell millions of pink and heart products a waste.

ive actually only celebrated valentines day once
and regardless it being cute it was kinda just boring after the presents
it was just some other day


ill get my valentines one day!
and itll be awsome! and with a whole day planned out!
(but probably not..ill prob spend it like this aswell)

oh well.

"better luck next yearrr"



Love , love , loveee!



,rose.

blonde haunting me.

The time my mom bleached my hair blonde (she ment to do.."heavy hightlights")
is haunting me.
and its annoying me
i have to constantly dye my hair dark brown now because it fades to a really light brown which i hate..
ugh!!dklf;jdsklh




sorry. just a little frustrated.


bleh!

wtf rose

yupp.

na na na

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sxlg6BIrQZY



I stumbled up on this song earlier
and it is so cute

it makes me really wanna cry sort of
(okay so i did shed some tears but thats cause im a pussy)

and the video i like specially because
it starts with something like
"when you have everything. what could you possibly desire?"

"the one you loved the most"

and then it switches back from him being like famous and being at fancy parties
with random hookers

to being so playful and cute with the one he "loved the most" in a simple setting.

and at the end with he goes back to find her when his rich and has everything he could want
shes gone

its so sad!


kinda corny unless you watch the video
what i like most is the past and future scenes
awh!




It's been so long,
that I haven't seen your face,
I'm trying to be strong,
but the strength I have is washing away.
it won't be long,
before I get you by my side,
and just hold you, tease you, squeeze you, tell you what's been on my mind.


I wanna make up right now na na,
I wanna make love right now na na,
wish we never broke up right now na na,
we need to link up right now na na,
I wanna make up right now na na,
I wanna make love right now na na,
wish we never broke up right now na na,
we need to link up right now na na,


Girl I know, mistakes were made between us two,
and we showed,
ourselves that night, even said somethings weren't true,
why'd you go?
and haven't seen my girl since then,
why can't it be the way it was,
cause you were my Homie, lover, and friend...



I can't lie, [miss you much]
watching everyday that goes by, [ I miss you much ]
till I get you back I'm gon' try, [ yes I miss you much ]
cuz you are the apple of my eye, [ girl I miss you much ]
I can't lie, [ I miss you much ]
watching everyday that goes by, [ I miss you much ]
till I get you back I'm gon' try, [ yes I miss you much ]
cuz you are the apple of my eye. [ girl I miss you much ]


I want you to fly with me, [ want you to fly ]
I miss how you lie with me, [ miss how you lie ]
just wish you could dine with me, [ wish you could dine with me ]
the one that'll grind with me, [ said the one that will grind with me ]
I want you to fly with me, [ want you to fly ]
I miss how you lie with me, [ ohh miss how you lie ]
just wish you could dine with me, [ wish you could dine ]
the one that'll grind with me. [ ohh the one that'll grind]...



Love,Rose

dont u just love

Guys who you know are just like..
they just set your gayard off?
i know of one
i mean he has all the traits

girls love him, his..always around girls, in the.."were best friends!" kinda way
they brag about the same thing
he thinks he looks good and u can just see that he thinks that
his the preppy girls coolest accessory
he dated some girl for a very short period of time
now their BFF'S!
he likes to shop more then i do..

its just all the signs.
theres more
but i dont feel like typing.


Peace

im glad that you left.

Im secretly glad for everything thats happened in my life
Like the people that've walked out, from the ones who've hurt me worst
to the ones who had no place in my life.

because for better or worst
once someone is out of my life , theres an empty spot sitting there
waiting on the next better person.

and when something bad happens and ive hit rock bottom
i know i can only grow , learn and go up from there.

"What doesnt kill you will only make you stronger"


its true.



Love,Rose.

My hair care regimen

I have extremly wild curly frizzy poofy mess of a hair.
its not pretty!!!
ever!!


this is an old pic..and when my curly hair is kinda tamed.

and this is what i can turn it into






sorry i was digging through old pics and got excited.

my hair doesnt look like that for the most part anymore
i have a top layer which i use for when i feel like having short hair
and the color always changes around from light to dark.



I wash my hair and condition with matrix sleek look shampoo & conditioner
i often also add in deep treatments for my damaged ends : (
then i apply chi silk infusion then let my hair airdry..

after that i apply some sort of anti frizz serum (i switch around often)
but here are some of my favs!



Organix nourishing coconut milk anti breakage.



Matrix sleek look styling creme



TRESemme Thermal Creations tamer spray



andd i do what you get done after you get your hair done at the salon
blow it out : )

blow dry it straight.

it is a pain in the ass..
it takes about an hour

but it gets the job done.

its taken me years to be able to get my hair like i wanted
because before my mom used to always do it..
but yeah.
thats about it.

Love,Rose.

Not trying to be judgeful but...

Since when has being pregnant been "ok" and accepted at this age?
i think its amusing how that along with homosexuality has become something thats "ok"
when before it wouldve been so looked down upon

Being gay is not a choice, and i agree with people coming to accept that.
But teen pregnancy?
wth?



why cant girls be smarter than that? or do they not think creating a life
that your going to deal with forever isint a big deal?

what is it?


I hope something changes this, and soon.
i think its becoming too much of a problem and it SHOULDN'T be ok
and it SHOULDN'T be supported.
it CAN be helped , protection ,birth control.

and YES they do work
dont blame it on that

and if not

abortion.

which i am so against of.. but i am a hypocrite on that
because i am more against kids having kids
than stopping that mistake from happening.


&&
if you have a kid and your doing just fine.

good for you. ?





Love,Rose.

today

This girl in my class
had a red eye , idk how else to describe it
there was blood..in her eye.
she said she got tazerd (idk how u spell that)
cause she was drunk and fought like 3 diff times.





just thought id share that little story with you.

lol?

also , i find myself saying

"haha no i was kidding dont leave me!!"
alot lately

i think its funny how i push people away even jokinly
and take it back as soon as they do
even with a smile on their face.
i like attention, thought i hate that i know girls probably
hate my life every time i open my mouth
but oh well.

i also seem to be fighting alot with
"i AM nice!"
"no.. your not." " yeah you hate me"

"no i dont! then i would says stuff like..oh wait i do.. im not mean!"


im really not mean, people just completly arent into sarcasm anymore.



i have more to say , but i dont really feel like blogging.

i want to just read ghost stories and eat my cheese friends.
which is all that ive had since my moms been gone.


and if you read my blog, like your doing right now
and you just get irritated reading or annoyed
i suggest you do the mature thing and walk away from it.

im obviously not blogging for you , you hating stranger



Love,Rose.

Hey you idiot...

You cant ruin a girl that thinks nothing of you.
i dont think thats quiet hit you yet.

Fear

I have grown a sick fear over
showing any cleavage anymore
i did today for the first time in ever

and i felt not only grimy but the shirt wouldn't stay up
so for the most part of the day i was self concious like
i was walking in school in my underwear

I hate talking to guys specially which i do for the most part
and im scared that theyll stare and enjoy it
i feel just like i did when i was a freshman
and this is actually making my stomach feel queasy thinking about that.




"rose .. wtf ?"


idk , its 2:07 AM
and i have nothing better to do.


P.S.


Dear you, Wow. your actually amazing at what you do.
i am seriously impressed.


P.P.S





P.P.P.S (is that real?)

“To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you, I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world…”



“Only the children know what they are looking for,” said the little prince. “They waste their time over a rag doll and it becomes very important to them; and if anybody takes it away from them, they cry…”
“They are lucky,” the switchman said.





-The Little Prince

"yeah..ha ha."

uhh
they loved her fancy underwear
every boyfriend every year
she tried to keep em entertained
when they can hardly remember her name
she did everything she could just to
to make him love and treat her good
she found herself alone
askin herself where did she go wrong
she didnt realize
she chased the type of guys
that dont believe in ties
tryin to apologize

never forget the day
she laughed and walked away
and I couldnt stop her
I guess she had it all
she had it all figured out
but she left me with a broken heart
fu-cked around and turned me down
cuz she didnt think i could play the part
but now the prom queen the prom queen
is crying sittin outside of my door
she never know how
how everything could turn around

lies

I made a stupid simple lie today
nothing that can harm anyone
doesnt defame anyone
and the person who i told it to probably doesn't even remember.

but i lied today

and its eating me alive and making me paranoid.


and when i look back and think about it
my conclusion is.. i am a HORRIBLE liar
while im doing it , and i dont let it go
i just let it eat me up inside.



and me and star are eating animal crackers..
that is all.

Quick Tip.

Hair

If you want good hair
invest in good hair products
some people are born with naturaly gorgeous hair
(FUCK YOU.)
but alot, like me. need to work hard for it
(and god knows i work hard for my hair!)

I never really see a point in buying special shampoos
i think conditioners are the thing that matter most
shampoos just deal with cleaning ur hair
but moisturizers are the thing that actually make a change in your hair


I use Matrix sleek look which are designed for people who want..
sleek hair straight hair.
(me! )
the conditioner is pretty nice it for some reason seems to leave my curls
alot straighter than if i dont use it?
idk , i like it ! :).





Cute twist to everyday pony tail;

Tye your hair to the side in just a normal tight pony tail
split the part above the hair piece in half and take the bottom part and dip it through that hole in the middle.. and pull it through
it makes such a cute twist!






she shows how to do it in the first few mins of her video
its SO easy takes like 10 seconds.
love it!

its the little stuff that matters

& its the little stuff that most people dont remember, but i do
i always remember them
& i appreciate them cause their not only short and sweet
but their my own secret memory
and their mine and i can look back at them and appreciate them for what they are
i can laugh and smile at them and thats all i could ask for in a memory
that their good to me
it does not matter if its newspaper or magazine , or even gossip material
because its good enough for me.

can anyone agree?

Its official..

I like someone.

alot.


( i know, i didnt think it was possible either!)

:)♥

Hateful

Why is adriana lima
so fucking disgustingly gorgeous?

(i know that made no sense
but NOONE
noone! should be that gorgeous
NO ONE!

atleast , someone could have the face, and be fat or soemthing
but come on now
thats not even fair.




besides my jealoussy.

i love her! she is my complete idol , everything i could aim to be.
shes the most gorgeous thing ever!
shes what i crave to be.

ahh!

iwoulddojustaboutanythingtolooklikeher.

and that is a true statement.

fuck barbie with her blonde hair and blue eyes.
this is what the image of perfection should be portrayed as

Feb '09 Favorites

Diet liptons green tea with citrus : )

I love this..except its horrible to drink during school.
It resembles beer alot in that way.


(it goes right through yah.)



My solia pink limited edition straighter.

im really enjoying straight hair now a days.
and this is a must.




My flirt blush in Oh please!




Maybelline mineral powder in pure beige






Yup! i finally got it , actually back in january i think when i went to the sephora in annapolis
(it was my first time.. i almost died)
Urban Decay Primer Potion





Loreal HIP's pigment in unashamed.
i love it! its a purple with gold sparkles in it.




and my usual Matrix products in sleek look line

i have all of these :-)
(and the iron guard spray , which isint here for some reason)





& of course the chi silk infusion..
my hairs so dry and bleh for the winter.







and my inspirational picture for the month:




Now that's fabulous hair.

New hero

I just found this new youtube channel
and let me just say..
the girl can work her hair!


Waves with a curling iron


Waves with braids


Braided bangs




love her! : )

I

I really do hate you.














Fuck you, Rose.

1,2,3,4

its been over a year
and i still have dreams about you.

why?

noones ever going to measure up to you
are they?

why are girls

So fucking trashy..
why do you intentionally try to start shit with other girls?
possibly for no reason?
ON the internet?

wait , i know why

"me and my overweight ass are bored and have nothing better to do
and that girl over there seems to being doing okay.. something must be done.
and noones paying attention to me and i have nothing to talk about.
everybody wins"

trashy.trashy.trashy.

i just saw someone insult someone else via myspace.
I mean really?

i myself would hit her back my own way

girl "you ugly bitch who do you think you are?!"

me "your new daddy.. hasnt your mom told you yet"

girl "what?"

me "yeah thats right , your face"





no no that wouldnt go so well

my real point is.
its just so fucking trashy

let me repeat this over again

a girl must always be two things

classy and fabulous

being white trash
is neither.

I mean what , lets say you yell at her?
what do you think..that makes you look cool?
nope.
It makes girls be scared of you
( girls are usually scared of rapist, rats and bugs , i guess you can fit in right there with them)


And it makes guys think your just..
manly.
guys fight.
do you think a guys gonna want to look at you after your like
"BITCH WHAT U JUS SAY TO ME?!"
and be like ,damn , thats the kinda girl i want.


and will girls getthefuckoverit.
its highschool
it means , everyone
i mean, EVERYONE , even those odd kids that keep to themselfs for 4 years
talk shit about you
everyone talks shit about everyone
get the fuck over it you stupid trashy drama seeking little bitches.
do you really not have anything better than to try to fuck with anyones life?
are you keeping up alotta anger inside?
is that it?




Love,Rose.

..

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ay.






"Your thoughts are the most beautiful sound I've ever heard."



Love, Rose.

Why does

My mom never take me to the dominican republic!?
i demand to go!!

i want to go and layout on the beach and get burned.

i demand it!


im GOING next time she does

thats final!

My own little ghost story?

I could always swear my house in the DR is fucking haunted
maybe cause my grandfather died when i was in my moms stomach
and i would always think i could see or sense him
regardless me never knowing him
i remember even digging through an tank of clothes and finding one of those old style hats
and for some reason , i knew it was my grandfathers
like i had seen him wearing it before
im not weather as to a dream , of what.
i remember the looks on my parents face.


This is a first short one im sure my brother and little sister could back me up on
One night my mom dad and older siblings left my cousin baby sitting us, the "little ones"
me my lil sister and brother
and i remember sitting in my room upstairs,it was dark out
and we were all drawing pokemons off the tv (cause thats how awsome we were)
and me and my cousin thought we heard my parents come home
so we went downstairs to the garage
and i heard what sounded like my mom..
call my name.
i looked went up to the bars and looked hard but it was nothing but darkness
(no there aren't any street lights)
i looked at her and she seemed confused to
shed heard it too.

weird!




my old garage.



when i was little ,around 7
me my little sister and older brother all shared a bedroom
we were all one year apart

We had a big bunk bed in the room where my brother slept ontop and me and my little sister sleep in the bottom.
i remember waking up one night and my room being messy as always
it had a pile of clothes sitting in the middle..
and i remember this so fucking clearly
there in the dark
what seemed like a glow in the dark ball (GOD IM GETTING SO CREEPED OUT REMEMBER THIS!) just jumping up and down..
up and down up and down up and down
i stared at it hard, then shook my sister awake and she saw it too (she still to this day remembers also) and we just sat there and stared at it.. i have no idea why i didnt yell out for my dad like i usually wouldve..

but me and my sister crawled into my brothers top bed, and fell asleep.
the next morning i went down and looked through the pile of clothes mayeb thinking id find a ball or something..


nothing.






chills!

i think

Every single guy in this walking earth should be made to read
old romance novels.
and watch romantic chick flicks religiously.





Seriously.
maybe theyd learn a thing or two.
and this world overall a more amazing place : )


Love,Rose.

i love this song

Because it has an amazing view.

& i agree.

I myself look up at women that's like that
that she doesn't need a man to support her but that she
can do on her own, so its clear to everyone his just an accessory to her if anything
that she can take pride on what she does and being able to pay for all her own shit
I myself hate it with a passion when a guy thinks the best way to make me happy somehow involves spending money on me , when i would be perfectly , even happier just taking a walk in the park in the middle of the night.
Actually, nothing you can buy with money can top that.


"there aint nothing thats more sexy than a girl that want , but dont need me."


and dont get me wrong
i like to be pampered at times.
but there is a difference.

Love,Rose.

I had an..

Amazing dream! one i hope comes true soon :-)) ♥!

and i love how NOT in contact with my family i am..though their right down the hall.
My mom left for the DR last night/this morning..
i kinda figured though , she usually gets out suitcases 2 weeks before hand
idky.

anyways

the house is so peaceful already : )
no one yelling at me for what i hope 2 weeks? the usual
though shes not going to work..
um!
i think?

who knows.



P.S.

yes i do, alot alot alot.




Love,Rose.

....

♥♥♥







.... enough said. ♥

Im so excited!

I feel like such a huge nerd
but yearbook is such an awsome thing to me
its like a project that i can work on that everyone gets to see

this year its going to be all color! : )
how sick is that?
im excited.
its exciting working on it
and its exciting that people like my ideas so much
its an all over exciting project haha.

this really opens a new door to what i wanna do after highschool
or what i COULD do.

just an idea! i still want my makeover salon haha.









and heres a pic from the teacher/student game.
slam dunkk!

Belief.

Someone asked me the other day
"whats your personality type?"

the word conceited popped into my head.
and then i was wondering if my hair looked alright..



Why am i so conceited?
I feel like it keeps me from the total amount of happiness that i COULD have
like , "i just know im better than you and everything you do is annoying and stupid
and your really not worth my time" conceited.

okay , everyone is atleast alittle bit conceited
some more then others
im just willing to admit it

I love mirrors , ill stare at one at every given chance
is that sick or what?
its not like im sitting there enjoying it
kinda, i just want to make sure everything looks good
and yes , i want to see how good i look.

"rose wtf is wrong with you?"

im sorry!
Every girl should , i mean, SHOULD enjoy looking good!
im just being honest.


But back to being conceited
i feel like ive kept myself from hapiness and alot of things in life
because i feel that those things ,or people are not good enough for me
that i can find someone better , that theyd make me look bad.

i HATE that!
but i cant help it
i swear im trying to change it
i swear.
I dont intentionally want to sound like an ass
cause i KNOW im not that great, at ALL
any given person could probably name alot of other people who are better than me.
to them

I could honestly point out 20 imperfections about me at any given second
im so aware of every single imperfection in my body
its actually kinda sick ,too.

its all about the individual
but anyways
its more like i know my worth
and i wont settle for any less

and at this point
theres noone thats good enough for me
that sounds extremly horrible doesnt it?
If i like someone
im not just worried about how i feel
but how others will feel
and how others will see it and think about it

i KNOW that sounds even more stupid than it actual is
but i cant help it!

and there is really no point to this blog.

i just need some help
im getting better.

people arent that bad.


Love,Rose.

whats wrong

whats wrong with trying to be like someone else?

you'll always just be a copy , a sequel..

never better than the original.


can you really live with that?




Love,Rose.

Olive oil..

"You used that WHERE? are you out of your mind?"

no, and in my hair and my face.


"Why in heavens would you put OLIVE OIL in your hair?!"

I used it as a treatment , left it on my hair for 3 hours.

"Ok..and that i bet left you some nasty greasy and stinky hair"

well.. no.
Olive oil is a natural treatment for dry and brittled hair that penetrates deep into the hair follicle
and moisturizes and repairs damage.
And the smell and feel came right off with one shampoo.

"Okay..so what did it give you?"
shine, my hair feeling over all stronger, and more important..silky

"And why would you put it in your FACE? dont you already have oily skin? why would you add OIL to your face?"

I cant exactly explain as to why
but maybe this can.

"
Oil Cleansing surprisingly to most people would sound ridiculous. The reason being, is that we have been brainwashed by media advertising, to think we need so many different products to perform so many different functions.

The truth is that many cultures have been using this method for many many years and is a very effective method for all skin types. The fact is "like attracts like" in most cases in life, therefore, if your skin is oily, an oil will degrease the pores and yet also if you have dry skin, because of the nature of oil, it will not strip the skin, therefore being a balancing way of cleansing ALL skin types. "





"well..what did it do to your face?"

well, i added a few drops of it on my daily scrub and washed it off
and my face was unbelieable smooth ,i washed it again thinking it was just left over
but nope , no smell , no greasy feeling
i cant stop touching my face , i just did it a second ago
its so incredibly soft and also just..looks alot better!

would i recommend this everyday?
no.. i wouldnt.
im not sure what the outcome of that might be.
but a weekly face treatment, mixed in with an egg could really make a difference.



http://wiredberries.com/beauty/2007/02/olive_oil_the_allpurpose_remed.asp



Love,rose.

.

I need a break from this town
the people here
and the things around me.

I feel like my life is on hold

thats not a good thing is it?












i want summer to be here

I dont

I dont own a car
Or a license
or a permit.

I dont have a boyfriend
Or a bestfriend
or a crush

I dont have a job
or any money
or any motivation



"where are you going with this rose?"

exactly nowhere.


But please go ahead and measure how much better you are than me for these things
regardless the fact that they could all disappear before your very own eyes.
but..these are the things that count? right?

Love,rose.

Oh..and as for the curling..

It sucked.
just waves..again

:-(


maybe i need a better curling iron..


(Chi Turbo Digital Ceramic Spring curling iron(woo! long name!) )

someone should buy me this!
its ONLY 109.90$...


what? no?

*sigh*

ill pull out my piggy bank and start collecting my pennies.

A Girl Must Always Be Two Things:

Classy & fabulous




"In order to be irreplaceable.. one must be different"

If you know me , you know im just that.
and i am irreplaceable
ive been told several times im one of a kind..
(regardless if it was a good or bad thing)

and i am irreplaceable.
You'll never find someone like me.

& thats a promise.



Love, rose.

Spray & self tanners..

BEWARE.


Regardless the fact that spray and self tanners are alot more healthier for your skin
the outcome might be somewhat of a nightmare..

Striking..Orangeness..the smell!

yuck , yuck ,YUCK!


If applying a self tanner its best to have someone help you
you dont want to be dark upfront and have a HUGE "tan line" in your back...
the smell
the chemicals in self tanners tend to smell horrid..so i wouldnt recommend applying one before going out.

Turning Orange.

You've seen those girls right?
yeah , horrible i know..
always test a small match of your skin in your thigh or somewhere else that wont be shown for awhile the least.

and the last and most common..spray and self tanners are controlled by your hand
if you miss a spot or apply to much in one spot
itll come out patchy and just look gross..
make sure to apply evenly to the whole area.


I recommend..




I have it on Deep , which goes 3 shades darker than your usual skincolor
which i wouldn't recommend if your light.
i like it because it gives my legs a sunkissed look, almost like flawless look and bronzed color..
now the smell..its OKAY.
its not horrid.. but i dont care for it.

2morrow i am getting up extremly early and..

trying this! i never really have before
i mean i HAVE , but ive never tried to get the curls as perfect as hers
mines always just look like waves
so yup.hair spray hair spray hairspray!
but..idk , i havent worn my hair straight in awhile.
we'll seeee!

77 views?

in one day.. im flattered!

hahah.

no im kidding, thanks guys though.


umm..

im heading out right now.
But right now im waiting so i guess ill post some beauty tips of the day







Confidence.

Is an accessory that alot of people have buried in their closet
when they should be wearing it EVERY DAY!
honestly,
confidence is sexy
do you want a guy who fiddles around and cant look you in the eye
or a guy who goes ahead walks up to you and tells you how good you look


yeah yeah
its same for guys
when a girls confident , its sexy it just is
imagine victoria secret models walking nervously down the runway
looking at everything , everybody , self concious hand over their body

yeah wtf?
They dont always neccesarily look good, but they just walk and look like they KNOW
they look good.
I bet you know a girl that does that..when they shouldnt
like "she thinks shes better than everybody!"
I honestly envy that , because it just shows how confident and happy she is with herself
which it does make them look good.
rock what you have ,and if you dont like it..
change it! but theres no in btw
the worlds your runway ladies...
so..

"go go go!"