GUYS!!!

I dont want to neglect this blog..most of my current crap will be stuck in the weightloss blog since its taking up most my life as of right now.

anyways


i do have something ive been thinking about alot that i feel needs to be wrote down.

is that grammar correct? anyways.



I feel like with the weight loss, i dont want just the weightloss
but the weightloss is a part of what a really want

to take control

im 18 and even though its incredibly obvious that even though you've been breathing for 18 years now, does not mean your an adult.

But since it is technically written down in the law that your mostly responsible for all the stupid shit you do. i want to make this a good year to remember.
the year where i took control of my life and made myself into a better person, i want to love me
i want to do things i didnt even consider attempting
i want to live!

My self image is something that might always haunt me
but i feel like if im at a point where i dont consider myself fat than it would be enough to go by

i want to do so many things
i want to learn to make people laugh
i want to take long road trips
i want to be able to make random people admire me
i want to be someone i consider amazing

im excited, i feel like weightloss is something i have control of actually doing
the other stuff isint as real as everything else (does that make any sense?)
you can measure your weight and how much you've changed it
but how about personality wise?



idk.

either way im excited, and ill try to keep this updated as much as possible. but mostlyy follow my weight loss blog!


xoxox

weight loss blog

link in the side ---->

holy shit.

For starters..
can guys STOP TURNING INTO SUCH PUSSYS?!
im befriending by all this guys who were dbags in highschool via facebook
who were known to be players and hardass idont cares!
now their all <3333

fuck
just STOP!!
please


i say , AGAIN


when did it become OK for straight guys to be SO fucking gay!!!!!!!!!!!!


Sigh

I hope this is just cambridge thats like this... i hope
like dating someone whose over 5 years older than you and it be OK
are you stupid.
are you stupid?

yes i said that twice

well heres a little hint......

he can go to bars and drink
and you cannot

that should be enough to get your mind clicking.

*sigh*







its still snowing, well
not literally but
it snowed all day yesterday and the cars were literally buried.
im looking to get this explorer! random but its exciting.

ANYWAYS.




Me and kj went to see dear john last weekend and
i dont know what to say
it left me speechless but not in a good way

i cant say it was the BEST it couldve been
but i cant say it was bad , either.
it was sweet
the whole "5 years later" thing ticked me off

specially since it was from the same writer from the notebook it could've atleast designed a diff plot.

argh, idk
i liked it
channing is so hot
and amanda i have a new found respect for
i used to think WHYYY HERRR!

but she was really cute in the movie so.
and she is actually very pretty



she has a very angelic look to her once you get past the mean girls scene where she could predict the weather with her tits.


i want to blog more, but ive grown really inpatient
im getting what ive heard quiet alot on facebook, "cabin fever"


blahhh

Hello

How are you?
Im good.
um um.

Not alot has happened worth blogging..
Its been alot , and i mean ALOT of snow
around 18 inches
and its going to snow today and tommorow again..and i dont expect to have ANY school for the rest of the week : )


idk....i just thought id stop in and say Hi!!
im currently looking for an suv : )


ill update later though!!


ba bye!

Please hear me out, next time.

Im sorry.
Im sorry that he changed,
Im sorry that you did too.

Im sorry that you hurt and i couldnt be there for you when you needed me the most.
Im sorry that i was too stupid to show my face
Im sorry that you had to go through it alone
Im sorry that i couldnt give you what you
needed most.
I hope that you can forgive me one day.
I will never forget you, and always love you.
I will learn from the mistakes that were made , i guarantee you they wont happen again.
I promise that i will be everything you will ever need.

So please hear me out, next time.