I always have an urge to write
theres thoughts in my head that not even my bestfriend, who i talk about EVERYTHING
with, and i mean, everything
we literally say whatever comes out of our brain and we talk no less than 45 minutes a phone call
which could explain her phone bill
anyways
theres thoughts in my head that i dont want to share with her
or with my boyfriend
because i feel like its not something they need to hear, or something i want to discuss
its just something that i would like to get out of my head
and now that i am writing i cant think of a single thought..
just kidding
im going to write, no backspacing
no rewording my sentences
what comes to my head is currently being followed by my fingertips
umm
the show "I used to be fat"
makes me cry, every time
i find it amazing MTV was capable of coming up with such a show
specially when one of their most popular shows are jersey shore and teen mom
its so real , so painful
and no matter the situation
i seem to be able to relate to how these teens feel
every time
and every time they cry, i cry
whether it be from hapiness or not
One thing i have seen from these show thats different each time is how the parents treat their kids
in todays show, the girls dad is such a teddy bear
and when someone said , "hey, i can help your daughter, but you have to help to"
and he jumped right on it, and even discussed how ashamed he felt to not have helped her earlier and took full responsibility,
other parents i have seen on this show are more or less...disturbing
there was a mother who was a huge ..skinny bitch.
she would leave out snacks just to see "how long they lasted"
and once the mom found the wrappers hidden she put them on her bed
to make a point.. make her feel ashamed, she did not confront her about it
so basically..no she was not trying to make her stop
it was more or less of a.. "hey, i found them, fatass."
um
thats it on that
my thoughts have changed quickly
i have a very short attention spam..
um , ok , so hi rose from the future (since im not very certain if anyone ever reads this)
You have a job
you quit subway, remember? you didnt exactly do it as you should have, but your glad you did it
because it was gross and annoying job
even if the people were nice
and oh rose
you also just recently figured out how much of huge bitches people who look perfectly
nice can be
roommates.
fuck you
the first one
i to this day still have mixed feelings about
but if the day came that i had to punch her face in
i will gladly do so
but its hard to hate her when she seems so innocent
I will however say, when shes sad, it makes me incredibly happy
miserable bitch.
anyways,
number 2
i used to really, really, really, really despise.
her very voice made my skin crawl
(forgot to mention, roommate number ones laugh gives me a headache)
but this was a case of "she needed to get laid"
because she is so much more mellow and nice with a boyfriend, im happy for her.
Roommate number 3
i love
and for awhile i kinda resented her because when some drama was going on she sided with the other roommates but really not really?
oh, rose from the future.. you learn this lesson
and incase months from now you forget..
YOU STAY WHO YOU ARE!
dont you EVER let someone question who you are.
you SHOULD not EVER
feel bad because you dont want to "give in" and pretend you like people that you dont
you've made it this way without being "popular",you should be happy about that
if you dont want to hangout with people you dont even like, than dont.
thinking back, being popular in highschool couldve been so easy
i knew enough people to suck up to and pretend to like to make my way into their groups
but i will never forget how obnoxious and annoying those cambridge girls are
gossiping 24/7 , no real substance to conversations and just plain no life white trash.
to those who really know you, rose from the future
you are so beautiful inside its insane
know that.
you should also know that i was around this time that you started wanting to be around your parents
that youve invited them out to eat countless time
and that a couple days ago, you went to the circus with most of your family
and that it was so much fun, and thats all you really want
to see your family be happy together
and that on its own just says how much youve grown up in the last couple of months
you should know that you been all on your own financially for awhile now
well, with the help of your boyfriend
who by now equals your long distance husband of 20 years
but besides that, you work
and you stress over bills
and you work as much as you are capeable of (thats a lie)
oh, rose
your working at the diner
remember how awkward it was that first day with all the..um.."diner" workers?
their ok now, specially since you found out a bundle of college girls work the night shift
and your close friends with almost all of them
oh rose
your awkward around old people
you have always been though so..idk if you will still be later on.
ive written enough, im going to skype my man and go to sleep and live on.
xoxox
